Short Stories

What If?

TW: mentions of suicide and self harm

What if I kill myself?

Would they love me then?

What if I added lines to my thighs?

Would they mean anything to anyone?

What if each line was someone who loved you?

What if every line was someone who thought about you?

What if someone finally cared?

What if when I thought about hanging myself someone wanted to be there for me?

What if every time I wanted to drown in my shower someone was there to pull me up?

What if every time I wanted to drown my sorrows with alcohol and weed someone was there to hold me while I cried?

What if people noticed how I don't smile like I used to?

What if they noticed how I look at myself passing the mirrors?

What if they noticed how I changed myself to be someone I wasn't?

Would they be happy?

Would they be mad?

What if they felt the way I did?

Would they cry?

Would they finally understand how I feel?

Or would they turn a blind eye like they always have?

Would they still want to be friends with me?

What if they finally understand my thoughts and leave?

Would it be because they are afraid?

Or because there mad?

Or would they stay and be there for me?

Be there when the thoughts get loud

When I feel like I'm drowning in sadness

In anger

In frustration

What if they cared?