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Healing Hearts

[Kim Seokjin FF]

[Y/n POV]

With a deep, shaking breath, I cautiously opened my laptop, fully aware that today held the answer to my dreams – whether I had been selected by my dream company. The weight of everyone's expectations rested upon my shoulders, and my acceptance would mark the success in those expectations.

My trembling fingers steered to my Gmail inbox, where the message from the company was. As time passed, my eyes began to get teary up, and my entire body trembled with tension. With a deep breath, I finally clicked on the email and began to read its contents.

The response left me broken, overwhelmed with embarrassment, and flooded by waves of deep disappointment.

"Regrettably, we must inform you that you have not been selected for the position you applied for. We wish you success in your future endeavors."

I read those words in silence, a faint sob escaping my lips as I faced the harsh reality. Securing this job had not only been my dream but also a profound desire of my parents, and now I had let them down. Their expectations had always been high over my aspirations, and I could already predict their disappointment.

At this moment, I found myself desiring to fade away with the passing of time. I began to question my own worth, wondering if I truly belonged to even live after this failure. Time seemed to freeze, suffocating me from all angles, and the overwhelming desire to vanish within that consumed me.

The phone rang, breaking the silence of the moment. Wiping my tears away, I glanced at the caller ID, revealing it was my mom. The weight of her expectations hung heavy on my shoulders, as I knew she called me to know the results. I was afraid and unsure of how to face her, but avoiding the call was not an option. I took a deep breath and answered the call.

"Hello, Mom," I managed to say in a dim voice."Did you get selected?" she asked, her voice taking on a stern edge.

The desire to cry welled up within me, but I managed to maintain a neutral voice as I replied, "I'm sorry, I didn't get selected."
Silence took the place. Neither did she speak nor did I but I could feel the aura. She was disappointed. After a 2-minute silence, she said a sentence that was enough to break my heart into several pieces, "You should have worked harder instead of dating and having a bf. You are a failure." Saying those harsh words she ended the call making me more suffer in suffocation.

I sat on the bed still and kept my phone aside while lying on the bed. Not being able to control my overwhelmed emotions, I cried in silence where my belongings could only witness this side of mine. I didn't want to meet anyone neither wanted to talk to anyone, so I switched my phone off and drifted into deep sleep. Sleeping was a temporary escape for me from all the burdens trying to kill me"  

[Kim Seokjin POV] 

For the tenth time, I attempted to reach her, but the constant "phone switched off" voicemail on my phone left me sighing in worry. Her phone being switched off today made me more tense as I knew she was gonna receive the result of the selection in the company. 

"What's bothering you?" Namjoon asked, his gaze fixed on my visibly troubled expression.

"Her phone is still switched off," I replied, my voice tinged with worry, as I took a sip of water to quell my anxious nerves.

"It could be that her battery ran out," Namjoon suggested a rational explanation. Deep down I wished it was this simple reason but I knew it wasn't the actual reason.

"Today was the day she was supposed to receive the results of her interview, whether she got selected or not. She's been stressed for a whole month because of this. I know her habit. She avoids conversation with others with she is stressed and frustrated." I groaned, frustration clearly visible in my voice.

"She might have not been selected. I suggest you visit her."

"I can't. I promised the kids that I'd visit them in an orphanage and play with them for the whole day and I can't hurt them. Y/n wouldn't approve it either. I'll visit her in the evening. I just wish I could just get a message from her. which you let me know that she is okay." Seokjin said while Namjoon nodded in understanding.