Yes I'm still hurting/healing
But now I feel something in between numb and overwhelmed.
I have so much homework, and yes I give myself time to do that work but yet I can not focus on that.
I vant do it untill right before its due...
I hate that I procrastination
It hurts me
It makes me feel like I'm so lazy and useless
Like I deserve everything bad.
Right now I had an essay I have to do by this weekend. Tried doing that but I really couldn't focus.
I have my room it's filled with clothes on the floor with a floor I haven't cleaned in a long while
My bed is broken and I haven't told my parents because I forgot and I just don't want to go through the process of taking my mattress and things off the frame.
I stay up late an I really shouldn't because I get up so early.
I get up late on top of that
I dont know why life right now is like this. I just- want it to be better.
