fragments

self-awareness

don't worry, i am self-aware
of these pointless thoughts
these feelings that make me sick
this fear of abandonment
it's not you, it's me
i really hope someday i'll grow
i really hope i will heal
and be better for you
please, until that time
don't leave me here
trapped between this darkness
clouding my mind
making me rain

i'm self-aware,
that every passing day, hour and minute
i'm getting more sick
and becoming more addicted
your absence makes me ill
one wish of mine you'll fulfill
stay right beside me and never leave
until i can endure
until i can live