A Decade and Counting

To You

Kumusta?

I've been through a lot these past few months. I've lost my passion to everything I loved doing. Nakakamiss din kaso pala noh? I remember being so excited para magsulat. Iyong time na kikiligin ka pa sa sinusulat mo.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa akin AHAHHAHA. But anyway, I would like to apologize to everyone. I know lahat tayo may pinagdadaanan...

I may have failed to reach my goal but I can still make another, right?

Tbh hindi ko na alam gagawin ko, but life must go on sabi nga nila. I don't want to give up. It's hard, but what else can I do? 

I realized na sarili ko lang din ang makakatulong sa akin.

"We're always here for you."
"I support you."
"I care for you."

Those were the words that I always ignore. It's a deadend for me because I have decided to note myself as unworthy and shit. I'm deaf.

The only one who can help myself right now is me... Accepting that I have everything, and that I just need to find ways to accept and value it more.

Namiss ko magsulat... Namiss ko iyong panahon na kung saan masaya pa ako. Namiss ko iyong panahon na sa kahit simpleng bagay lang natutuwa na ako.

Sorry for the rant ahahah. Nakakadrain lang kasi. Pero ganun talaga ang life, right?

One time you're happy, then other times you're sad. But I hope we all can make it in the end.

I'm not sure kung matatapos ko pa itong kwentong ito. I miss ADAC tbh ahahaha tapos may mga ongoing pa akong napublish. I'm not going to delete everything here. Maybe... Someday... Hopefully soon, mahahanap ko ulit iyong passion ko sa pag susulat. Kapag okay na ako... I want to reward myself by completing every story I want to write.

To you, who is still reading this. I hope you'll be happy and live a very fulfilling life. It's okay to feel down and sad. Okay lang na magfail ka sa bagay na pinaghirapan mo... Okay lang na maging hindi okay. You're still here, right? "You exist, there for you are."

Pick yourself up.

So. 
See you soon.