Authors note: This chapter will include suicide and self depreciation, please proceed with warning, or don't proceed at all. Suicide, and death, will also just be a general theme in this fic so if that makes you uncomfortable do not read it! :33
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Izuku is currently laying on his knees, on top of a tall rooftop, that his favorite hero just left him on. He thinks he may be crying but he can't tell, because nothing feels real.
He entire identity just got rejected by the person he looked up to his entire life. The person he thought would at least somewhat believe in him.
Izuku wants to die. He feels like giving up everything. He feels like finally finishing off his horrible life.
Tears are now very clearly pouring from his eyes. He can't take this.
But he knows. He knows that he fucking can't kill himself, he needs to keep going. He needs to prove everyone that a quirkless kid can become a hero.
It's impossible
Stop. He hates that little nagging part of his brain. It's lying to him. Even if he can't be a hero, maybe he can become a police officer.
Probably not
Izuku slaps his head, he needs to stop thinking these things. Izuku picks himself up from the ground. He will persevere.. even if others thinks he can't.
They were right. Kachan was right. Take their advice for once
No. He will not take his friends stupid advice- he can't.
He looks around to find the exit, Because of course all might left him on a random fucking building that Izuku has never even seen before.
You do know one way down. Infact it's fairly quick, and the only downside is Your life ending.
Fuck.
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Izuku got down safely. Because he is not going to fucking die today, no matter what his brain keeps nagging him to do. No matter how much he feels like any little thing will set him off.
Like for example, a little explosion nearby. Well obviously not a little one, but he knows what it means. There is a villain fight.
And You missing it moping around like this
What?
No I can't just show up to a villain fight like usual- it's basically useless at this point. If I can't be a hero there is no point in looking into hero stuff.
But the other diagnosis he got when getting the quirkless diagnosis is fucking raging right now, because holy shit Izukus autistic ass wants to see a fucking Villain fight.
His legs are moving without him even thinking about it, and before he knows it he is behind a giant crowd of civilians and heros alike. This is a huge fight no doubt.
And You aren't fucking seeing any of it because all of these people are blocking him- probably making him miss out on the coolest fight of his life.
He pushes people out of his way, weaseling to the front, or at least somewhere that he can see what is going on. Until finally, he can get a full grasp of what is going on.
Until he sees the villain.
Until he sees the person the villain captured.
Until his heart drops, because this isn't fun anymore.
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