Protect the Crown

18

I kept tossing and turning all night. There was so much on my mind that there was no way I could sleep.

I sit up in frustration and throw my blankets off of me. I go to the bathroom and wash my face.

The cold water against my face felt nice. I looked at myself in the mirror. I had eye bags which showed my tiredness and my hair was all over the place.

"This is who is going to rule a kingdom full of people." I tell myself in disbelief.

"A person who can't sleep over a minor inconvenience." I sigh shaking my head at my reflection. "A person who is immature and reckless."

"A person that is expected to be a leader but cannot lead."

"A person who can't even understand what she is being taught in classes and meetings."

"And worst of all, a person who has grown an attachment to someone she is not supposed to."I put my palm on my forehead realizing every single one of my words.

I am not fit to be the queen.

And I like my bodyguard.

Oh god...I like Theo.

I groan walking out of my bathroom and into my closet. This is very frustrating. I'm confused from all the thoughts wondering in my head which gave me a massive headache.

I should be focused on taking the crown but I am not anymore. All I think about is Theo.

All I can think about is how his eyebrows furrow when we play board games like candy land. How he tries to hide the fact he loves chocolate. How he listens to me ramble all day. How he gives me comfort and allows me to be vulnerable.

All I can think about is how perfectly his lips connected with mine.

I sigh reflecting on all the times I've shared with Theo. I change my clothes into warmer ones and brushed my hair.

Next thing I know I am in front of Theo's bedroom door. I don't even hesitate to knock lightly. "Theodore. Are you awake?" I ask in a whisper knocking one more time.

I sigh when there is no answer and place my forehead to his door. A few minutes later, the door opens and I stumble back startled.

Theo stood in the doorway scratching his head. His hair was a mess. He wore a black wife beater with grey sweat pants. He looked tired and sleepless. He probably couldn't sleep either.

"Wanna take a walk with me?" I break the long silence that surrounded us. He takes a moment and it looked like he is debating with himself.

He eventually nods and walks back into his room. He comes back with a jacket on and closes his bedroom door behind him.

I walk towards the stairs with Theo following closely behind me. I reach the outside doors out to the pool area. We walk past it heading towards the green house.

I open the doors to the green house. There were fairy lights around the top which lit up the entire greenhouse when I turned them on.

I take in the view. It was pretty big area and it contained almost every plant you could ever imagine.

The vines of some of the plants grew on the walls some even reaching the roof. Most of the plants were out grown and looked a little wild but I think it looks better this way.

Theo seemed to like it too because his eyes seemed to light up as he looked around. "Keaton was the one who wanted this built." I say sitting on a wooden bench and Theo continues to stand listening.

"Since he was the favorite, my parents got it built without question or hesitation. He spent a lot of his time in here probably to get his mind off of all the stress he was under." I continue and my heart clinch at the thought of my brother. I felt tears start to form in my eyes but I wipe them away quickly.

"Anyways after he past, there was no one to take care of it so I come in here and water the plants once in a while." I smile to cover up my sadness.

Theo walks towards me and sat next to me. "I lost a sibling too." He says looking me in the eyes for the first time in a while.

I look at him urging him to go on. He has never opened up about something like this.

Finally, It's my turn to listen.