Spiral - HOFFSTRAHM‼️saw fanfiction 🌀

I'll wait

Snowflakes twirled and fell outside their window
The warmth from the bedroom shone out onto the showy balcony.
Mark opened his eyes
He sighed and his head pounded
A warm hand snaked up his belly and rested on his chest
"Mmm, its too cold in here" Peters low voice vibrated on marks neck
He basked in his warmth and turned to see peters face
The bruise was bad
But something about Peter fighting for him made his insides flutter
Not to mention the sensation of peter touching him
He felt jittery but he wanted more
Mark rolled over and embraced sleepy eyed Peter

They both thought about the kiss
The way it made the two of them fit together perfectly, like peter was marks missing puzzle piece.

Something bubbled up in Peters chest
Being here with Mark was so nice.
But he felt shame, he knew it was bad because he really did like Mark.
But all his life he thought he was straight.
It felt weird, like it was always in the back of his mind
He didn't feel like himself. Or at least the image of himself in his head.
I wish i could just stop thinking
I want to fucking enjoy this, not analyze it
Peter had been taking his meds
But only for a few weeks, hopefully they would start kicking in soon.

The two of them walked down the stairs to greet everyone
Last night it felt like it was only the two of them
But now they had to deal with the others.
"Okay so what the hell happened last night?"
Adam asked through a piece of toast
"It sounded like a wild horse was galloping around downstairs"
"Mark was drunk.. he kinda, fell" Peter said reluctantly
"You drank?" Larry asked, confused
Mark nodded with shut eyes
He looked like he regretted it
"Whats going on mark, you never drink. Is it something at work" Everyone suddenly leaned in after Larrys question
They all looked concerned, like a family
Peter smiled at all the concern, hoping that Mark would see that everyone cares about him.
Instead Marks eyebrows furrowed
"Okay guys its really not your business"
Mark bowed down his head and tried to focus on his breakfast
Everyone exchanged looks
Even peter, it felt nice to finally be a part of the group.

Later when Peter came home from work he went downstairs to figure out what happened at breakfast.
Larry was there
"Hey!"
"Hi, i was just wondering why you guys were so concerned about mark this morning. I mean he is a mean drunk but i didn't think it was that bad"
Larry looked up at him
"Your face..." He shot Peter an obvious look
Peter felt like a fucking idiot
He totally forgot about the bruises
"Oh my god i totally forgot!" He fingered his brown forehead bruise gently.
Larry laughed
"It's okay, everyone knows how Mark gets when he's drunk. Theres always a reason. Plus, the busted up lip, purple eye bags and obvious pain in his stomach that he kept grabbing at didn't help" Larry turned on his stool to face peter who was awkwardly scratching the back of his neck.
"Should i just give him pain medication? What does he need?" Peter asked in an attempt to not seem too bothered.
"Oh" Larry said clearly fighting a smirk
"Did you want to give it to him? I could just put it in his room unless you wanna go in there to give it to him
Oh shit
They don't know we sleep in the same bed
Peters face got red, that didn't help the situation.
"Oh, um yeah, I-I can put it in ou-his room for him" Peter scrambled around nervously
Larrys lips pursed and he nodded his head slowly.
Peter laid on the bed and covered his eyes with his hands
Im such a fucking idiot
He started walking around Marks room, going in his drawers and admiring the decorations
Mark had lots of pictures
One in particular made Peter goofily smile
It was Mark in his uniform and hat, he must have just started. He looked serious and almost angry, his usual face.
His lips stuck out in a light pout.
Peters eyes traveled down to a photo of young mark and Angelina
They looked at each other lovingly
Mark smiled with his teeth, he looked so happy
He looks so hot
Peter brushed his hands over marks face in the photo and tried not to giggle.
He felt stupid
Why does he make me feel this way.
Mark walked through the door and his eyebrows raised.
"What are you doing?"
"Just taking a look around"
Peter walked swiftly to mark with a smile on his lips
He grabbed marks green scarf and pulled him in.
Mark was pleasantly surprised by Peters warm lips on his.
He smiled on his lips and giggled
"Someone is excited" Mark said
"mhmm"
It was nice being greeted like this
Mark couldn't believe he was kissing Peter Strahm, and that he initiated it.
"Does your head feel better?" Peter asked
"Oh and your stomach, that seemed really bad. Can i see? Is it bruised? Also i have some pain meds for you" Peter rambled
"Im fine, i promise" Mark grinned
Peter looked up surprised and brushed Marks hair back.
Mark made him feel so nervous.
He felt terrible as he leaned in for another kiss.
"Can we.." Peter started
Marks eyes glistened and he searched Peters face
"Can we.. keep us a secret?" Peter asked shamefully.
He didn't want to be asking that question, he wanted to ask if they could fuck.. but that made him nervous. He didnt want to put Mark through this.
He deserves someone who's ready
Someone who knows their fucking sexuality
Peter felt terrible
He couldn't bear to look at mark
He almost started crying
"Oh Peter whats wrong?" Mark asked and sat down on the bed patting the space next to him.
"I just- I thought i was straight but then you came and you're so- I just, i didn't know I was gay and im new to this"
Mark listened attentively and brushed Peters cheek.
"Oh Peter.. You don't have to be gay to like men. Maybe you're Bi, i don't mind either way. I can talk with you about it if you want but i hope you know that i can wait. I can wait until you're ready to tell people. You don't have to come out either. We don't owe it to anyone to announce our feelings. If you want to though...I can wait"
Peters eyes welled up with tears
They hugged and peter desperatly kissed marks neck, jawline and face
Mark giggled
"Thank you.." Peter cooed gently
"Of course" Mark blushed
"Now stop kissing me or somethings gonna happen" Mark said and grabbed Peters hand
Peter looked up at him through wide eyes
"Come on, lets go eat dinner"

They sat next to each other the whole night with touching thighs.
They couldn't stay away
Peter couldn't stop smiling
Mark Hoffman is all mine.