River Jude - Poems & Letters

River Jude

The biggest things in your life,
leave the biggest impacts.
When they disappear unexpectedly,
it's like half of you is diminished,
broken,
and left with the feeling of what if?
What if he could've stayed,
What if he could've lived a life he deserved,
What if he could've been happy?
I wish ever moment of everyday
that you were here.
l wish you were here living a life of
peace,
freedom,
happiness,
and a life you can stay joyful forever.
River Jude,
How lovely you were and will always be!
You gave and wanted nothing in return,
you put a smile on your face knowing you weren't happy,
you put your heart in what you believed,
and you kept your soul pure & true.
"true to life, the most real."

{written by Hallie Borgel & quote by River Phoenix}

River Jude,
Hey bud! Well where do I begin,
from the moment I saw your precious, captivating face in Stand by Me I knew, "Man I need to find out more about this boy." I'm so happy I got the chance to find you & know you even though I actually didn't. What made me fall in love with you is your ways of living life & seeing that you set out a life that you wanted. You never gave up, nor said, "I'll do it another time," no you went for it, and you ended up being the best young actor at the time! I wish you could've seen more in life... I wish I could've gotten to see your angel-like features, I wish I gotten to say hello, I wish I could've helped. It hurts me knowing you weren't happy, I would do anything to bring to back to your life on earth.. it hurts deep inside and I just wish and wish I could've just said, "River, you are so much more than you think you are, you are so pure, so special to this world... I love you, it will get better..." But God knew it was your time to say goodbye to this life, and time to go live it with him & the rest of our angels. Last, thank you for everything you did for everyone, thank you for making us laugh, cry, smile, and for making us find ourselves. You will always be my inspiration & goal for life. I love you baby boy, Chris, Danny, Boy, Mike, James, Charlie, Wolfgang, Jimmy, Carl, Nikita, Devo, Talbot, Philip, Brian, but I love you River Jude Phoenix... I'll love you till the end of time, now & forever. I can't wait to see you!
1970 - 1993

{I chose the song Sunset Lover by Petite Biscuit for this special letter to River because it reminds me of how pure and simple he was... How he could captivate anything and everything.}