𝕿𝖍𝖊 𝖘𝖆𝖕𝖕𝖍𝖎𝖗𝖊 𝖘𝖔𝖑𝖉𝖎𝖊𝖗-
The human mind is really the scariest thing of all.
There was once a girl who vowed she would save everyone in the world, but forgot herself.
Avengers book
Peter Parker x reader
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It's only been a few days since being at the compound. Wanda said she's doing a lot better, especially since everyone and myself have been by her side helping her through it. And I don't have to be a mind reader to know vision and her kinda have a thing. But for me it's the complete opposite. I've never had a home, a loving home. With people who care about me. I've spent 99 years in pain and suffering, not knowing if I would be alive the next day. I still don't call myself a hero. Everyone tries to convince me that I am but they don't know what I've done. They don't know all the innocent people I have killed. Pietros death shook something deep in me, I guess it's because it reminded me of Alexander. I watched both of them die the same way. And both times I couldn't do anything about it.
I was sitting in one of the many living rooms in the compound, my mind thinking about everything I've been through. But I stopped when a memory of Alexander singing to me in the Hydra cell popped into my head. Not even thinking I started to sing
"Lavender's blue, dilly dilly, Lavender's green When you are King, dilly dilly, I shall be Queen Who told you so, dilly dilly, Who told you so? 'Twas my own heart, dilly dilly, That told me so Call up your friends, dilly, dilly Set them to work Some to the plough, dilly dilly, Some to the fork Some to the hay, dilly dilly, Some to thresh corn Whilst you and I, dilly dilly, Keep ourselves warm Lavender's blue, dilly dilly, Lavender's green When you are King, dilly dilly, I shall be Queen Who told you so, dilly dilly, Who told you so? 'Twas my own heart, dilly dilly, That told me so." I finish smiling remembering all the times he sang me that
"That's a old song" I hear someone say from behind me I turn to see Steve standing there "Where did you learn that? I didn't think anyone these days remembers those songs." He asks me whiling sitting across from me "My brother used to sing it to me" I answer him "You had a brother?" He asks "Yeah. He was 3 years older than me, his name was Alexander" I say smiling "Is that his?" He asks me pointing to my necklace I was fiddling around with "Yeah it is, after he died i took it off of him and i have been wearing it ever since" I tell him "How did he die?" He asks me I pause zoning out at the memory "You don't have to answer it if you don't want to" he tells me "No no it's ok. Umm he was in Hydra with me. He died while we were on a mission" I say "Elizabeth, can I ask you a question?" He says "You technically just did but yeah what is it?" I laugh "What happened to you? Throughout your whole life I mean. How did you get at Hydra" he asks me I pause "Do you want the whole story?" I ask looking at him "If you wouldn't mind sharing" he says with a smile I take a deep breath before starting "Uhh well my parents both worked for Hydra. My dad was an agent and my mom was a scientist. I was 2 and Alexander was 5. At the time we didn't know where my parents worked. Everyday my mom would bring home these needles with some type of serum inside and give it to us. It felt like fire was running through our bodies for hours every time she gave us one. My mother said it made us smarter, but in reality it aged our brains. So even though I was a 2 year old my brain understood things like a 16 year old would. One day we got back home from walking around the woods to see both my parents in the living room waiting for us. They told us we were going to visit where they worked. Once we arrived we went up to the hydras leaders office, we found out that my parents made a deal with him. They sold us to Hydra. And every time we survived an experiment they would pay them. Months went by and Hydra found out my parents were stealing extra money from them so they brought them into a room, gave my brother and I a gun and told us to shoot them. But we couldn't do it. He took the guns from us and killed them both in front of us. For years after that they trained us to be their soldiers. Then they decided to put us in ice to wait to use us. Once we got out again they trained us more and gave us the super solider serum but for some reason it didn't work on my brother. So they trained him harder and tortured him instead. On my tenth birthday we both got sent on a mission together to steal some information. On our way out we got caught. We made a run for it and I thought we escaped. But once we started to move again I turned to see Alexander had gotten shot 3 times in his stomach. I watched him die in my arms just like Pietro and I couldn't do anything. That's when I took the necklace off of him before I was pulled away by Hydra soldiers. Right when I got back to Hydra the leader told me he made a deal with a place called the red room. It's where they train girls to become assassins. The deal was I would be trained there for 3 years before coming back to Hydra. After my 3 years were up I was brought back to Hydra for more experiments. That's when I got these powers. They trained me for months before I finally had full control over them. That's when they started sending me on more missions. And once I had done all their dirty worked they threw me back into ice. Once I was brought back out I was sent to sokovia. That's when I met Wanda and Pietro. Spent 6 months there before you guys showed up. I've killed so many innocent people Steve." I finish as I realize tears were flowing out of my eyes "Elizabeth. I know what you're thinking. But you're not a monster. You didn't choose to have that life. You didn't deserve that life. Alexander would be proud of the person you have become" he tells me "I'm proud of the person you have become" he adds I look up at him listening to his words but I just can't believe them "No no you shouldn't be proud! You shouldn't! I am a monster Steve, I am. I'm not some hero y'all say I am." I yell "Elizabeth you are not a mons-" he starts to say before I cut him off "No Steve! Nothing you can say can change my mind. I've killed to many people to be forgiven that easy. You know it's true" I cry
I heard something behind me and turn to see everyone standing there. I try to wipe my tears before asking "How much of that did you hear?" I say closing my eyes "Lizzie" Wanda says stepping forward "We didn't hear anything. We saw it. Your powers must have reacted to your emotions, it showed everyone your past. Everything you just talked about we all saw" she says in a soft voice I suck in a breath "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for everything I've done" I cry falling to my knees Everyone rushed to me I don't even know who was really holding me as I cried but what mattered was they were all there. They all stayed with me till I calm down enough to talk
"Steve's right you know. You're not a monster, you may not see yourself as a hero. But I do, all of us do" nat says I look up at everyone to see them smiling "I second that" Wanda says "Third" tony says "Fourth" Clint says "Fifth" sam says "Sixth, even tho I technically said it first" Steve laughs I chuckle looking down at my hands before looking back up at them all "Thank you guys" I smile with happy tears folding my eyes Wanda helps me stand before they all tackle me in a hug. We all end up laughing as we break apart
"Ok wait, I have a serious question" Sam says to me "What?" I smile "How old are you exactly??" He says confused "I'm technically a 100 year old stuck in 15 year olds body" I smile "100?!!" Everyone yells except Wanda "Yes 100" I nod as I laugh "You never looked better honey" nat winks at me "Let's celebrate!" Tony yells "Celebrate what?" Nat asks "Umm Elizabeth finally realizing we all love her?" He says but it came out more as a question not a statement Everyone stays silent staring at him "Why not" I laugh "Yes!! I'll get the drinks. Someone order pizza and dessert. After we eat we can pick a movie out" tony yells already walking away to get the drinks
I smile as everyone starts to go get things ready. Maybe I really have found my family.
