I need him // Johnnie Guilbert x Reader

5

TW : R4PE, SEXUAL ASSAULT, SELF HARM

He grabbed my arms and threw me on the ground

i was screaming for help 

He kicked my nose, hard

"shut up" Alex said

( Author : this makes me sick to my stomach so this probably isn't gonna take long ) 

"if you tell anyone i did this then you and your little pathetic friends are going to killed, heard?" Alex said

i nodded my head nervously

i want to get out

He took off his clothes then took off mine

He grabbed my neck, almost choking me 
he lined up his... thing up to me and entered inside me

it hurts so badly

he started roughly and hard trying to hurt me

I want Johnnie, so bad

i tried to imagine it was Johnnie but, it was hard 

it didn't take long until he put his clothes back on

he kicked me until I was bruised

he unlocked the door and closed it behind him, not even letting me change

I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie 
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie

I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie

I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie
I want Johnnie

I got up and put my clothes back on, feeling the blood in my underwear

I sighed and got out the room and ran towards the door

The party was in the same apartment complex as i lived in so i ran towards my dorm as fast as i could
I entered my dorm and locked the door behind me

I was aching with pain, tears in my eyes

I went into my bedroom and went to change 

I was in shorts and a hoodie

I went towards my nightstand and opened the drawer, taking out a knife i kept in there
I rolled up my sleeves

I sighed, then started cutting myself all over my arms, thighs, and even on my stomach

I was in a puddle of blood, but i didnt care. 
I can die if i wanted to
I wouldnt care
Nobody would either

My eyes, dripping tears 
I was breathing fast, not catching a good breath
I was sobbing my eyes out so much i passed out on the floor

-

i woke up
on the floor
everything hurts
i got up, and went into the shower
it stung so bad

After the shower i changed and brushed my teeth

I was in another hoodie, and another pair of shorts

i looked at my phone 

Message from Friend Group

Tara 💗
Y/n where are you??
Are you okay??
What happened?? 
Why did you leave so early???
Please answer

Johnnie
Y/n are you okay
Please answer
Hello
Where are you 
Did something happen?
I'm scared
Answer
Did I do something?
Please

Jake
what happened
hello
ill message you tmr 



All of it was texts from 12 in the morning




"Guys im fine i was sick sorry" I texted the friend group

I sighed

I want Johnnie here

I need him here








...


Fuck it, I'm calling him


I dialed his number and the phone started ringing

"Hello?" Johnnie said

"Johnnie i need you to come over right now" I said

"Oh okay, why?" 

"I'll tell you once you get here, please hurry"

"Alright i'm coming over''

He hung up


I went to the living room and waited for him

What if he doesnt understand?


He's the only person i can talk to about this


i waited fo 2 minutes until there was a knock at the door

I sighed

I got up and opened the door to see Johnnie standing there

534 words


i love leaving yall on cliff hangers
anyways im gonna write one more chapter then im heading to bed bc its christmas night ❤