Double Life | Jussie Smollet || Jamal Lyons

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Jamal

✦ I don't know how to keep this secret from her anymore, Yes, I love my wife, I love my daughter, but I can't hide this secret anymore. The more I keep this from her, the more, I want to scream.

I looked up at the ceiling and than over at my wife, I sighed deeply to myself, kissing her forehead. She rested her hands on my chest,. I grabbed her hands and kept thinking about her, about my secret, about my daughter - The consequences. I was knocked out my thoughts to my daughter, Jamille crying. Angel woke up

"Jamal, can you go and get her?"

I nodded and she got out my arms and I got up and grabbed my robe putting it on and walking into my daughter's nursery, I picked her up, she smiled and I smiled back at her kissing her cheek, "Hey beautiful."

I rubbed her back and walked back into the bedroom, I'm sharing with Angel. I laid down in the bed with my daughter rested on my chest. Angel rolled over and smiled at us, kissing my lips. I kissed her back.

"I'm about to get ready and than I'll come and get her dressed." Angel said

"Nawl, I got her babe."

She smiled and nodded, "Okay."

I watched as she got out the bed and walked to the bathroom. I kissed the top of my daughters forehead and I got up and went and got her dressed and than went downstairs and fixed me some coffee, I sat the coffee on the table, I sat down with Jamille, I sat her up on the couch, holding on to her back as she danced to her uncle Hakeem's new single, "Drip Drop" I chuckled and grabbed my phone out the pocket of my robe, I took our picture before video taping her dancing and sending it to Hakeem

Yazz: 😂😂 Thats my niecey niece 😘

I smiled.

Me: U comin' by here?

Yazz: Not today got bizness 2 attend to.

Me: Aigght.

" Jamal!"

"Downstairs, baby."

Angel came running down the stairs, she plopped down on the couch next to me and grabbed Jamille.

"What's wrong?!" I asked her

She looked at me, "Nothing. Just wanted my baby."

I looked at her for a long time than I nodded, she laid her head on me and put Jamille to sleep, when she was asleep, she laid her on the other couch, and straddled me.

"What you want to get into?" she asked me wrapping her arms around my neck

I wrapped my arms around her waist, gripping her butt pulling her closer to me, "I dont know, what you want to do? I'm fine with just being home with the two of you"

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Angel 👼🏽 "angelcake"

✦ Sometimes, I feel like Jamal doesn't even love me. I wonder if he wants to be in this relationship, Yes he treats me better than any man I've been with,.

"Jamal, I need to ask you a serious question."

"Okay?" he asked looking up at me

I ran my fingers through his hair laying my head on his, "Do you love me? Do you still want to be with me?"

He looked at me,  "Baby, of course I love you,  and yes I wanna be with you. What's wrong? Why you ask me that?!"

"Nothing, its just- sometimes,  you distant."

"You probably caught me on one of my bad days, you know I be in it with pops and I don't want to take it out on you. I'll do better, alright? I promise." he said looking over at me

I pecked his lips, "You know you can talk to me about anything right.?"

"Yeah, I know." he said with a smile pecking my lips back

"Why your pops don't like you?"

"I don't know, honestly, every since I was little, I guess I was the black sheep. He always cared more and did more for Andre and Hakeem." he said, "The only person who got me and understood me was Cookie."

"A mothers love is always the best love."

He smiled, "Listen to me, Angel. I love you and only you. My eyes are only for you. I may fumbled in the past but, I love you and I don't want to hurt you."

I smiled and kissed his lips,  "I love you too."