𝒮𝓌ℯℯ𝓉𝒽ℯ𝒶𝓇𝓉𝓈

Please dont leave me.

Requested by:Anitmit727
In which : your and varian get into an argument

This takes place while varians dad is still trapped
Or is it..???
(Once again, half assed.)

Angst
WARNING: domestic abuse
Also I'm listening to mitski so I'm praying this hurts you guys 🙏🙏

Now playing: mitski.

"varian please, calm down." I cried out
I get mean when I'm nervous, like a bad dog.
"WHAT MAKES YOU THINK ILL STOP JUST FOR YOU Y/n ?? HUH? YOU THINK YOUR SO SPECIAL TO ME? I HAVE NEVER LOVED YOU." I could feel his blue eyes glaring at me while I tried to defend my self but my teary eyes and blurry vision made it hard to.
He slams his desk in a rage "JUST GET THE FUCK OUT! GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT!!"
I scramble to get up as he starts gripping his hair

I steal a few breaths from the world for a minute, then I'll be nothing forever.

I start hyperventilating in the kitchen and I try my best to drink some water as I call my friend but their phoen goes to voicemail

And I am the idiot with a painted face, in the corner, taking up space

I should've known this- HE wouldn't get better.

A few months ago

Varian was having one of his episodes once again as he lashed out at me
"YOU ARE USELESS, YOU CANT EVEN DO THIS ONE THIGN I ASKED OF YOU?"

"Your growing tired of me, and all the things I don't talk about."

His eyes glowed with rage  as he stood over me, choking me.
"P-please varian!" I was starting to loose consciousness as I felt my eyes start to droop as varian picks me up again and throws me to the ground as I gasp for air
"I should've never accepted your confession in the first place."

"you're like a dog. threatening to bite but wagging your tail if i give you a crumb of a promise. it's pathetic, really"

"And autumn comes when your not yet done with the summer passing by but I don't think I can stand to be where you don't see me."
I blackout as I feel sleep overcome me

PRESENT

I flinch away from varian as he tries to hold my bruised hand
"Sorry I don't want your touch,"
I nervously chuckle as I back away from him as he glared at me but then gave me a soft look that felt.. oddly fake.
"Sorry I can't take your touch, it's just that I fell in love with a war."
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GUYS I KNOW THIS DOENST MAKE SENSE, THATS WHAT I WA SGOING FOR

Songs: cop car, me and my husband, a pearl, I bet on loosing dogs.

Also the underlined is a Quote I got from a scaranouche x reader angst I found in tumbler so congrats to them