A DREAM OR NAH

Beginning

So from what I remember when I was little it was always me and my dad never my mom,my mom wasn't around. My dad had some screws loose and so did I . Everyone says that I'm just like him I think so to.My dad never left my side when I needed him He was there btw (he passed when I was 13) Every since then I've felt like everything has went to shit and I really can't stand all this but I'm getting ahead of my self let me start over. This is my story of my life/dreams/drama/love story .
We're should we start ok when I was younger I lived with my parents and it wasn't the best they always argued and tried to kill each other that's toxic love.
I don't wanna have a relationship like my parents but I want the love they had for each other.What they had was beautiful but they were just toxic my dad only smoked weed my mom did everything possible but me I just smoke my weed and mind my business.My moms been through some crazy shit and my dad and that's why they were so toxic they were both mentally unstable and just couldn't keep up with each other and I think that's happening to me right now I fell in love with boy and we're really not good for each other but we can bring out the best in each other sometimes he really makes me happy he's everything to me. He's my whole world like I will do anything for him, but me and his love is toxic and I can tell, but I feel like me and him could really do something like prove everybody wrong, because me and him going to the same type of stuff, we just get each other we can fix each other . I meet him in 7th grade and every since then we just clicked it's been about 3 years since then,we've gotten so so close he knows everything about me I know everything about him and no we're not together we never were but we'veu done some stuff before but I'll tell y'all that later 8th grade year was insane me and him was skipping class smoking weed just living life right nah u have consequences for everything and that's what happened to him he smoked way to much passed out to the hospital was there for like 2 days we didn't talk till the weekend after but me and him are always on the phone when u see him you see me when you see me you see him.We just like that