A DREAM OR NAH

Dreams??

So the dreams I've been having are adding up to life I don't know but either I'm crazy or this is actually happening so I say bout I week after my dad passed I started having sleep paralysis and really bad nightmares and anxiety attacks.All that's stuff happened in one night one dream it was honestly really scary I had a panic attack.
my sleep paralysis It stopped after about 4 weeks after his passing it was the worst 4 weeks of my life so I had this one dream of me and
"my boy best💕" me and him was grown up and we lived in this big ass apartment we was rich or something and I was in the shower and I got out and he was laying on the bed just laying there I put on a big shirt and just some underwear that's all and we was laying down talking and he started to take his soft ass hands up and down my waist and then moved to my ass and then to my downstairs and then we started kissing and I got on top of him and we was just kissing and he was using my waist to make me go back and forth and then out of nowhere  he was inside me bruh and then my dream cut the morning and in the dream I woke up laying on his chest butt ass naked 😭(oh lord please help me)
But sometime in 8th grade we did something a little bit like that. We was in 5th period it was time to go to next period and we decided to skip class that day for 6th period so we did we went to the 3rd floor meet some 7th graders that had some za on them we didn't even get nun cus the teachers but we saw a teacher she was like what's going on here and me and "my boy best💕"ran to the first floor.Bottom floor there's this place behind the stairs well and we always go back there to skip because we never get caught so we went there and he was complaining about how he ain't did nothing freaky in a while he was talking about giving head so I said my head good he said no it ain't I said ok let me show you he said bet so he walked over to me and I put him against the wall and unbuckled his belt and.....WAIT
"What" nothing
Omg when I tell u his banana was big asf that's not normal for an 8th grader it was like 8inches so I started using my mouth and after about 2 minutes he said something he said "damn your good" I just looked up and said I know "😛😛 ate down"
but he was pushing my head down tho I don't like when niggas do that soo....I told him to stop but why do all boys do that
"next I guess"🙄