Passive Aggressive

why do i keep saving myself?

i am destined to die.
i have known this for quite some time.
my body has tried and tried
my mind has tried and tried
i've begged and sobbed and begged for a mercy kill.
because i also know
that some people just aren't meant
to stay for very long.
and i am one of them.
when will i stop escaping my destiny?
why do i escape when i want it?
do i want it?
do i want it?