𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶? neteyamxaonung

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|🌀|Aonung POV:

⚠️-TW- Self-harm/suicidal thoughts!!

- I finally returned to the first place I ever saw the fish family, the same cave but now in front of me was my angry dad.

Not a view I had never seen before, I sighed to myself as I got closer to him,

' You didn't catch it ' He signed me, and as I nodded, I knew he would know this because every time one of these fishes died, their lantern shut down and lit up again, and when the whole family died their lantern shut off forever,

And he waited until he killed the bigger fish to see if I was going to kill the baby ones. like always.

' They were babies. ' I signed back to him, as he gripped his hand around my arm making me lose my spear, as he pulled me closer to him, I frowned as he used his other hand to sign me,

' They eat baby ilus. ' I pulled my arm away from him and backed away, ' Their monsters ' he signed me again as he placed his arms to his chest.

' How are we better than those monsters if we kill babies too ' I signed him frowning, i saw his eyes widening and in a flash I felt my arm get pulled to the surface, being gripped very tight.

He pulled me until I felt the sand under my feet as I tried to get what the hell was happening, " Dad- stop pulling me! " I snapped in the end as I tried to pull my arm away from his grip he kept me even tighter and finally faced me with cold eyes.

" Aonung, we spoke about this a task is a task, when I command you to kill, you kill, I don't know what's gotten to you but since last I been talking to you, you got soft. weak. " he hissed slowly his words harsher by the end,

I frowned as I felt my head explode, " I'm not fucking weak or soft, I won't kill a family of souls just because you are incompetent at protecting baby ilus, " I hissed back,

" Their predators, that's what they eat, they try to fucking survive like we are trying to do by killing many other fishes and sea animals "

" You're the softie here, Father. " I finally spat as he got even closer to me, his eyes burning with rage at my attitude which he always hated.

" You're going to be the next chief, how are you going to protect you're people if you can't kill anything in your path to do so " he said in a lower serious tone, i sighed and looked at the ground,

"Then I hope you won't be alive to see me become such a disappointing chief, " I said with a matching tone as a big sigh came to my ears, and then when I looked up I saw my father, storming off the sand.

I kicked the sand as he left me there, I dropped myself on the sand and placed my hands on my head trying to cool down the heart and the anger that was growing inside of me,

The same thing. the same fucking story that will end the fucking same. I remember every word he said to me every time I showed pity to any animal, every time I missed my aim with my spear every time I didn't fight good enough to beat him, every time.

" You're weak. "

" You're soft. "

" Such a dissapoiment. "

" How can you call yourself a man? "

" Sometimes I don't know if I even can call you my son. "

I felt my eyes fill, and my anger was growing as words and memories were swirling down in my head, he was my dad and I loved him and I knew he loved me back, but his anger issues. his words sometimes said in anger make me wish I was dead.