Giveup on me

23~Hug

MEERA'S POV

"You look gorgeous "

He said looking intensely at me in a deep voice...

And i could not help but blush....

And then we went quiet.......we both were looking straight in front of us , leaning against the railing

I looked at him after a while and saw him looking straight with a slight smile on his face....

And i just got lost in his looks ......he is so handsome.....damn .....how sharp jawline......masculine body.....perfect shaped lips.....his wife would be so lucky....

Stupid ...you are that lucky girl...

Me? Seriously? This handsome man would be my husband.....

Do i deserve him ? May be no ?

I am hiding the fact that i get panic attacks....i have not told him about my depression....

Shoo ....shoo.....i shooed away those thoughts....

I am fine ....absolutely fine.....

Those are just the mood swings and the normal ups and downs that everyone goes through at some point in their life......

I was in my thoughts when he lifted his gaze from the world view to me.....

He smiled looking at me and i smiled back ...

What is this ....a smiling session ? Or a blushing session ? ...

We should talk something.....

But what should i say....

Are you fine ?

No.

How are you ?

Stupid he is fine standing in front of you ....

Then..... how is your work life going ?

No..

It's not a formal setup where i would ask about his work life...

See...i told you ....i am stupid .....dumbass.....i don't even know what i should talk to my fiancée.....

You stupid just keep smiling because when you talk ...you go raw...i mean unfiltered and if by mistake you said something that is not to known by him.....than it would be trouble.......

"Ummm...." he said grabbing my attention...

"Yes? " i asked

"Ummm...can i please hug you? "He said all of a sudden out of nowhere...

And i being the same dumb got shocked and didn't said anything but just looked at him with big eyes....

And then i gained my mind back and then shook my head in yes...

I mean ofcourse he can.....within just another 14 days he would be doing god knows what not with me ...

Then what is a simple hug ?

He came forward and my heart raced with a speed of bullet train.....

And the moment he hugged me...i lost all my ability to think ....to react.....

After a minute i also hugged him back ......

And god ....where was he before? ...this hug is giving my heart a peace i never felt before in my life.....

I closed my eyes and hugged him even tighter ......

I don't want to let go this feel ....it's not the hug on body ...it feels like i have just hugged my soul.....

We stayed like that for another 2 to 3 minutes and then he pulled back a little and looked at my face and i gave him a warm smile.....

And then he stepped back and i feel like pulling him back .....

Are my needs too much ......or it's just he....i mean i never hugged anyone before ....

So does it feel the same when we hug anyone or is it something about him....

Third person pov

She lowered her gaze .....with shyness

Also his heart was racing fast ....only he knew how he had gathered the courage to ask her for hug...

And then she parted her mouth to say something ...

Making him nervous ...what would she ask.....wasn't she comfortable ....

"Which perfume do you use? "

oh no.....you asshole .....what did you say.....she thought

What would he think ....is this the question you should ask after first hug....

But again the question is something she want to know the answer to ....

I mean he was smelling soo damn good...

He chuckled hearing her question as he thought what not about this....he was soo nervous to think what would she ask .......and she lowered by head and slapped her head internally ....

See he is laughing at you .....she again thought

"Joy Baccarat Pure Parfum " he said ...

What? What did he just say?

She widened her eyes internally...this is the name she can't even pronounce properly...

She doubt if such things are available for sale in india....

She nodded her head as if she understood everything he said....

Atleast she can act intelligent.......*hahaahaaa*

And his heart was at peace .....that she didn't mind the hug...means she was comfortable with it.......

And then they both went quiet ...there was a shy type of silence in the air....

She was embarrassed for the question she asked in such a romantic ambience and his heart was at piece when he hugged the love of his life for the first time.....

He wanted to do happy dance and just hug her and keep her to himself forever just right now without wait.....

And then they were called downstairs....

After which he left for his house....both of their eyes were looking at each other .....craving for another such moment ....

As soon as he left she went inside the house running ...

She started hugging everyone at the house ....

"Oh god .....nobody has that magic ...." she said to herself....

She hugged more members like her dadi ....her sister ....her brother ....

But no ......it was not giving the same butterflies as his hug was giving.....

She even hugged herself but no....

"It's not about hug meera....it's about him "

Really ?

"Badi jaldi fisal gyi meera tu toh....ek hug mein hi ye haal h tera....." she again whispered

(You slipped in just one hug...just in one hug hug....you are behaving like this)

She bited her nails while overthinking about just one hug.....

And then she pulled her hairs in frustration....

Oh god.....this man has make me insane .....

"Meera ...listen to me ....see, he is going to be your husband.
...okay....he will do god knows what not with you .....and you are exaggerating just one hug this much " she said looking at herself in the mirror....

"But it was the first time i shared a romantic type wali hug with a boy "

"Okay....fine.....no more discussion over hug "

She took deep breathes to calm herself....