SEVEN

The End

I stood alone at the edge of the cliff and could feel the tears pouring down my eyes like rain from a heavy cloud, a torrent of emotions cascading down my cheeks and each drop carried the weight of my failure and my worthless self. The feeling of loneliness and the being a burden on this earth which always pressed me down was coming out through these tears.

Each and every painful moment flashed in my mind every now and then and it only added more fuel to the fire burning inside me. They said god has a plan for everything, this is what he planned for me?

Despite my countless efforts, I got rejected by the interviewer for the nth time for the job I always dreamt of. This was his plan? The scolding bitter words of my parents, telling me that I am worthless, unwanted and that I should get lost from this world, carved deep inside my heart like knifes, was this his plan? And not to forget, the man whom I cherished for whole five years is now going to be my sister's husband after rejecting and humiliating me infront of his friends. This was all his plan.

The once unwavering belief in God began to fade away and in that moment of despair, I found myself uttering the words I never thought I'd say, "I hate you God. I hate you so much." The pain, disappointment left a bruise in my heart that will never heal.

Opening my eyes, I gazed down at the cliff which seemed like heaven to me now, heaven which was away from all the chaos of this world, away from every despair. The only place which could bring me solace. Wiping the tears, I took a step towards the cliff with the intention of finishing myself.

Closing my eyes, I took a deep breath. This is all going to be over. With a heavy heart filled with pain and anxiety, I let go. My body surrendered to the gravity that pulled me down. It was just a few second or maybe a millisecond, I felt strong jerks of winds which pushed my body with a great force and soon a feeling of weightlessness flew across my body. Everything got fuzzy as I went down. The weight of everything negative I was carrying until now was fading away . It soon felt like I was going in a deep slumber and that's when I knew that I was going into an eternal sleep.

It was my end.

Or maybe a start of something new.