Learn to live with it

Thought it was a teenage dream

My twelve year old me
would be so happy
Specially after knowing
what've happened

I have waited all my teenage years for it
But mysteriously
it haven't gave me a relief
After knowing that shit

I was so excited
As hot as hell
but know not exactly
in that way

Now it's rare
It seams that nothing have changed
You don't remember
Despite you're still in my head

It hurts so much
My inner me is screaming out loud
A lot of time I have waited
Just for that moment to be unremembered

Your friends made u call to mind that kiss
Cause I was never on your list
but when I finally did
You didn't gave a shit

I hope u don't regret
Cause my twelve years old me would be so upset
Overthinking just make a mess
Of what it should be a success

I don't now what to think
When that feelings stick
I thought I would forget you some day
But oh my god it happened again

Now's time to ignore
Remembering that nothing is wrong
A kiss is overrated they've said
So I think I'll believe it that way