To His Future Lover ✔ (Haciendero #5)

Ikalabing-isang Kabanata

Kabanata 11

Happy graduation day, Mr. Engineer

Julius has began courting me.

Nagpaalam siya sa akin nitong nakaraan. I was even hesitant to allow him to court me when I was trying to resolve my feelings for someone else. Ayoko namang paasahin iyong tao.

But he told me to just let him court me... to show his intentions for me are pure.

Bahala na.

Kailangan ko rin naman ng diversion. Pakiramdam ko sa bawat araw lalong lumalalim ang nararamdaman ko para kay Chance. It wasn't just simple as having crush. Mas malalim sa paghanga ang sumisibol sa aking dibdib.

I didn't even know if it was there all along, and my feelings were just concealed. I never once entertained the idea of liking him for several reasons.

Bestfriend ko si Chance, matagal na kaming magkaibigan. Nakakapanghinayang ang taon kung masasayang iyon dahil nagkagusto ako sa kanya. Tapos mabait siya sa lahat, hindi lang sa akin...

Selosa ako.

We didn't talk about what happened last time. He didn't even bring up about the kiss or that he was jealous to save us from awkwardness. Umakto kaming pareho na parang walang nangyari at bumalik sa dati.

I don't know...

I don't know how to confront my feelings for him.

The more I tried to hide what I truly feel, the more it wants to burst.

Bawat paglapat ng aming balat, parang nakukuryente ako.

Madalas ang pagbisita niya sa akin sa apartment. We would spend weekends together, but he's rarely sleeping at my place unlike before. I was just blow-drying my hair, while my bestfriend was cooking in the mini kitchen.

"Crim," I heard him call my name. "You have a visitor."

Walang emosyon ang naturang boses niya. Kumunot naman ang aking noo, lumabas ako ng kuwarto. Nakagat ko ang aking pang-ibabang labi nang bumungad si Julius na may dalang bouquet ng rosas.

"Hi, Crimson. I'm sorry for interrupting you two. Aayain sana kitang manood ng sine." Iniabot niya sa akin ang bulaklak na tinanggap ko naman, ramdam ko pa ang paninitig ni Chance na halos manuot sa aking balat. "Uh, but it seems you're spending your Saturday with someone already."

I smiled awkwardly.

Tumikhim ako.

"Makoy, this is Julius, katrabaho ko at nanliligaw." I introduced the newcomer to my bestfriend. "This is my bestfriend beside me, Julius. Si Chance Macario."

He nodded and offered his hand to my bestfriend. Tinanggap naman iyon ng kaibigan ko, ngunit kahit nakipagkamay ang dalawa, ramdam ko ang tensyon sa pagitan naming tatlo.

"Why don't we eat lunch first and go to the cinema?"

"It's a great idea," Julius answered. "What do you think, Crimson?"

"Kayo ang bahala..."

Malaki naman ang apartment para sa akin, pero para sa aming tatlo, lalong sumikip iyon at uminit. Nag-set ng table si Chance para sa tatlong kakain sa maliit kong mesa.

Paborito kong ulam ang niluto niya, pero hindi ako makakain nang ayos. Awkward silence enveloped us all. Panaka - naka namang nag-uusap ang dalawa. Chance was interrogating the man.

Hinawakan ko naman ang kanyang hita sa ilalim ng table.

Pagkatapos ng awkward na tanghalian, pumasok ako sa kuwarto upang magpalit ng damit para tumungo sa mall na malapit.