BOUND BY HATRED | Sookook

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Jungkook

When she walked out wearing my shirt only, it was hard to pull my eyes away from her. She looked...Aish, Jeon Jungkook get yourself together. What the fuck is wrong with you? How can you have such thoughts due a girl who killed your Lana? Don't forget the real reason why you married her. It was only for revenge.

I shook my head and realised that her skin was burning with high fever. I took her in my arms and went to her room. Lying her dien on the bed, I cover her with comforter. She was staring at me, blankly and I couldn't help but sit next to her.

"Why did you put yourself in risk to save that kid?" I blurted out the question I really wanted to know.

She blinked, a low smile passing through her lips. "Would you like to hear a story?" She asked to which I nodded.

"Well, when I was in high school, world seemed pretty fucked up to me. I was tired of every. I didn't want to live anymore. So, one day I bunked school and went to my favourite place that was inside the woods near the fast-flowing river. You could hear nothing but the sound of flowing rivet and chipping birds. The trees were so tall that I often look at the sky and wonder if someday, I'll be able to learn how to be happy? There was beautiful. The place was beautiful, it was kind of a place where you could go crying and after sometime, the mighty nature will heal your soul and you'll definitely come out smiling. That place used to be my secret rendezvous. But that day, I went there with something else in my mind. I sat at my usual spot and after taking a sharp breath, I decided to jump into the rivet to end my life. At that time, I just wanted to die and I had no idea that how scary it is to take your own life. The second I jumped into the rivet, I struggled to come out of it not because I didn't want to die but because all the pain I've suffered in my life were nothing compared to the pain I was having while struggling for breath. With each passing second, I regretted my decision but deep down i knee that it was too late. I never thought that suicide can be this scary. It was always that once you die, you're at peace but no one told me that there's a second before you due where you wish to live. I struggled to save my life but nothing happend. So, I closed my eyes and waited for some miracle to happen and you won't belief that something like that happed. A person saved me by jumping into the water and carrying me out. I was overweight at that time and I really don't know how he managed to carry me into his arms. I was half conscious but I was glad that I didn't die. That person then gave me CPR. It was CPR but fir me it was my first kiss from that person who was my saviour.bonce I gained consciousness, I found a boy sitting on the rock facing the river. I went to him trying my best to not look at the river because the water seemed scary for me that time. As I sat next to him, facing the other side. I thought that he will s old me for trying to suicide or anything like that but he didn't say anything. We just sat in a plain, comfortable silence till he decided to break it. He told me something that is still engraved in my heart. He told me to live no matter how hard it gets because death isn't the answer to all our questions. That even though I suffer every day, I must wake up and try to survive in order to live. And that's how I survived my life, that's how I lived because the boy made me realize the importance of one's life. I saved that kid because I knew that how valuable is even a single life. I didn't want to risk my life to save the kid at all but I just wanted to save him and it was my reflex to push him aside and I didn't get a time to save myself"

I stilled at my place and everything came rushing to me like a truck. All of sudden, it became hard for even me to breath. I looked at her face again and this time, I didn't see her as someone who killed Lana but as someone who-

"Do you want to know what happend next?" She asked cutting my own thought, her lips curving into a bigger smile. I nodded, not being able to say anything.