tbh i dont even know why im still trying
i feel like shit, school's starting in two weeks and all i want to do is die
im still grieving Jade and i didnt really knew her that well yet it as affected me a lot
i cry myself to sleep thinking about Jade
honestly im starting to isolate myself a bit again and i dont trust a lot of people
i only have two or three friends and i only talk on a daily with two of them
i dont know what im doing with my life
my sister hates me and makes me cry everyday
same about my mom, i cant even count the amount of times she has blamed me for ruinning her life
i dont see my grandma that much and the only teacher that i genuinely liked isnt going to work at my school this year
my backpack is broken and my mum said she wont buy me a new one and for some reason that makes me want to cry so hard
i still have nightmares everynight and living scares me but so does dying
but im not even living now, im just here, wasting hoxygen
i feel like everyone hates me and the cycle will repeat itself and at the end of the day i'll be alone again
