Waking up after making love with Dua felt wonderful. It's been a long time that we did it and she was still next to me in the morning. Her arm wrapped around me making me feel so secured. Yea maybe she slept with some guys before but I knew part of her imagined me there instead.
•flashback•
I turned on the tv quickly, Dua is on the Jimmy Fallon show tonight. Before her secret affair I was her supportive best friend and a fan too so everytime she went on interviews I was so excited to see them.
"Dua so with this new album being out now is there any songs that are specifically about a significant other?" Jimmy asks
Duas usually really good at dodging questions like this so this should be funny.
"Well most of them are about a specific person you know about y/n I mean what my boyfriend sorry my best friends name came up randomly" she laughs
WHAT THE FUCK! SHE JUST SAID MY NAME ON LIVE TELEVISION! I know it was a mistake and she's probably worried as hell now but I can't help but laugh out loud. I mean we all know it was clearly not a mistake. I doubt she wrote "good in bed" about her boyfriend she constantly makes fun of.
"That's an odd mistake to make" jimmy says causing the crowd and Dua to laugh
"No no I love her but not like that" she replies
Ah even when she denies it I could read her perfectly. If anything this moment proves how much she thinks of me as much as she denies she does. The fact that I'm the only one who can read right through her means much more than anyone knows.
•Present•
"Good morning cutie" I say as Dua stretches out
She's a work of art, everything about her is mind blowing if I weren't used to seeing her this way I think I would've fainted.
"Good morning love" she says smiling
"Do you still want to talk about what you said?" I ask
I need to prepare myself mentally because what if she was under the influence of something and totally forgot about we talked about last night? I don't want to ruin the vibe we have going so if she says no I'll take it.
"Yes I do" she says
"That's good remember I'm not here to judge you I love you Dua and I'll love you regardless of anything" I say
She puts on her shirt on and adjust herself on the bed board. Yea it's a good thing she put it on I don't think I'd be able to focus.
"To be completely honest it's certainly is the fame that changed me, I thought and sometimes still do that I can have my life however I want it but clearly that isn't a good thing right?" she says
I don't know rather to say yes or no.
"It's not because it's made me a horrible human being, especially to you and I love you so bloody damn much but it's not only fame contributing to this but before you, you know my heart was broken too many times so I wanted to get revenge and I started dating all these guys" she continues
I saw it coming to be honest and it makes me sad that she thought it would help. I do remember how Dua was feeling the time I met her it wasn't only her career affecting her but her boyfriend mentally abusing her made her life 10x worse.
"You didn't have to do that Dua you're worth so much more than that trust me" I say
"You're the only one who makes me feel like I am and I treat you like shit" she says
She looks down and I can tell she's about to cry. I pick up her chin as soon as I do her tears run down like a river.
"I cannot deny that you didn't really treat me correctly but there hasn't just been bad moments, yes those moments are the only reason I'm here but my heart it overflows for you" I say
"I could never give you what you deserve though, it will always be like because I believe I'll always feel this way" she says
"I highly doubt that Dua, youre aware of what's going on all you have to do is change it" I say
"You're so great" she says as she goes to hug me
•flashback•
"Sometimes I dream of us way too much it's scary" Dua says as she's laying next to me
"What do you dream of us doing?" I ask
She turns and looks me in the eyes. Her eyes always twinkled a little when she saw me, something she never had when she looked at her boyfriend's. But sometimes I wonder if it's a bad thing, like maybe the twinkle means she doesn't really like me in that way. Whatever
"Having a family believe it or not" she says with a soft smile
"A family as in? Marriage and the whole thing?" I ask
I've never even dreamed that big about us. Or something I would like to dream though because I know it'll never happen in real life since she said she didn't see me in the "getting married" way. I've grown to accept but I fear I'm about to get delusional again.
"Yes today, I dreamt of us living by the beach next to a cove and we had cute babies, most of them looked like you but that wasn't an issue because you're so bloody adorable" she says pinching my cheek causing me to blush
"That sounds beautiful sucks it'll never happen right?" I say
"I'm sorry" she says looking away from my eyes
"Don't be I get it, you told me already and I'm fine with it, I'm happy I don't dream of it though, I don't think I'll ever want to wake up again" I say
•present•
"Remember when I said I didn't want to marry you?" Dua says as she pulls away from the hug
I don't say anything I just laugh.
"I was so harsh to myself because that's all I ever wanted and want, I was always daydreaming about it" she says
"I tried not to even think of it to be honest but yea I also want that" I say
"Well" she forms a smirk
"What?" I reply
"Marry me?" She says
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