Regrets [KazuTomo]

Another dream

Tomo?...

Is that you?

"Tomo!" I exclaimed and walked up to him. 

Why wasn't he turning around?

"Tomo?... Come back... I miss you."

Out of no where came the Raiden Shogun puppet. My eyes widened as I saw it.

His death...

I ran to him, reaching out my hand but I could never reach him. I stood there watching as he was mercilessly slain by the puppet...

all over again.

A look of horror on my face as he fell back. 

I could suddenly run up to him again. 

"Tomo... Tomo.. it's okay..." I mumbled. I hugged his lifeless body through gritted teeth. Beside him was...

His vision...

I clutched it tightly in my hand.

My surroundings shifted, I was falling...

Leaves surrounded me as I fell, there was a maple leaf.

I reached out to it but it disintegrated...

I let myself fall.

Splash!

I was slowly sinking....

further and further down.

Tomo? Why was he right above me... lending a hand?

I reached out again

I couldn't reach him...

yet again

I awoke with a start. 

Dreams of Tomo weren't uncommon these past few days.

All I felt was

Regret

Shame

Guilt

I missed him so much...

Did I cause his death?

Should I have stopped him from fighting The Shogun?

Should I have told him how I felt?

I stretched and went to the bathroom.

Salt traces were evident on my cheeks. I quickly wiped them off and stared into my reflection.

Tomo?...

Was I losing it?

I saw him in the reflection, standing behind me with a small smile and a hand on my shoulder.

"It's okay Kazuha... I miss you too, but you have to move on." 

"No," I croaked, "I want you to come back... I love you..."

A sad smile spread across his face.

Tears glistened in my eyes. I leaned over the bathroom sink, face in my hands as I cried. 

I looked up again and he wasn't there anymore. 

The dead electro vision in my pocket felt heavier since that day.