MEAN - Tom kaulitz

Sad BOY

"Tom?" I asked absolutely confused as tears pour down his face. "Could I sleep here bloom?" He said wiping his tear away walking in, I feel bad seeing the sight of Tom crying, last time I ever saw him cry was when he was 6. He cried because a butterfly died.

Flash back

"Tom play with me" I scream at him, Tom was always mean to me and today bill was sick so he wouldn't play out but Tom was out playing by him self so I figured out we could play together.

"No!" He said looking in a bush focused on one thing? He seemed so distracted by it, it was making me mad. I stand where he was trying to see what is making him so quiet. There i see a butterfly with blue wigs. It was beautiful, breathtaking. "It's Beautiful" I gasp. Tom ignored me trying  to take the butterfly in its hand, he did he caught it but when he opened his palms it was dead, its beautiful wings crushed.

"No" he cries, "Tom are you okay?" I asked as tears pour out of his eyes, "it's your fault!" He pushed me into the ground making me scrape my knee.

End of flash back.

"Tom what's wrong?" I asked, "it's nothing bloom" he said in a painful voice, "Tom you can tell me anything" I sit next to him on the sofa.

"I hate the person I am, I'm so fucked up" he cries, Tom is a very mean person..but now it seems like he doesn't want to be that person. "You're not Tom" I said trying to make him feel better. "Don't lie" he chuckles but it was a painful one.

I didn't say anything having nothing to say, "I'm drunk" he sighs, "you can sleep on the couch" I said changing the subject, "thank you bloom" he said hugging me, it caught me by surprise, this is my first time I have ever been in toms arms.

"Where is my mum?" I tilt my head as he breaks the  hug, "sleeping at mine she is drunk" he chuckles making me laugh. "Movie night?" I smile, "yeh" he flashes me a huge smile.

Time skip

"So what do you want to watch?" I asked, we are at my room now laying on my bed, "I don't mind if you choose" he smiles, why is he being so nice? It's making me confused but it makes me happy?

We decided to watch hungover, laughs filling the room of mine and toms, it feels weird having a full of laugh with Tom, he isn't bad as I thought..

"Bloom" Tom said, "yeh?" I asked turning around to see him. Suddenly he kisses me? My eyes widen in shock as I felt his soft lips on mine.

"Tom" I said pushing him off me, "sorry" he sighs

It felt good, the butterflies in my stomach, his lips on mine felt perfect.

I think about what just happened and my through took over me and I kissed him again.

"We shouldn't" he said pushing me off him getting off my bed walking out of the room leaving me in the dark, it hurt me really bad, why is it hurting so bad!!!

I felt a tear roll down my cheek, "fuck" I groan, is he trying to mess with my head!! I turn off the tv walking into my bathroom washing my face. I look at my self in the mirror feeling ugly, did he push me away because I'm not like the blonde girls he goes out with?  Why did he do this to me? He made me feel embarrassed and now I'm insecure.

I dry my face with a towel and walk back in my room laying on my bed, looking at the wall, it's replaying in my head, it was a huge mistake to do that.

It's never gonna happen again!

(Hey guys sorry for such late update, let me know if I should continue this story 💕)