CRUSH

please

This goes back when I was in 9th class, I live in kota and was admitted in one of the coaching classes. I was a shy kid back then, It was the first day and I was going through all the new faces in the class and got stuck on that face, that face which look like something I was always looking for, It felt like “khaan thi tum abtak?, kitna intezaar kiya hai tumhara” (where were you? I was waiting for you my whole life). But like any other shy kid I knew this is not happening dude!, concentrate on studies rather. So I hired a auto to pick and drop me from my home to coaching, there were several other kids as well, My house was the last stop. Maybe fate had some surprises for me and one fine day as auto came to pick me up and I was about to step in .She was there, yes! that girl and I was dumbstruck as I could not beleive this as real, I got into senses and somehow sat beside her with **awkwardness**. Days passed by we started talking after only we two were left, I used to recall those small talks after autoride and use to wait for the nextday. Days passed, year passed and finally I decided to convey her my feelings on the second last day of session classes. After the coaching, driver dropped all the kids except me and her I decided to do it then but I was fucking nervous, Is this right? What will happen? but I was sure to do this, come on dude you can do this, you seeing that sweet shop just 20 meters from here just say it when auto reaches there. Alright! . Less than in a second I turned my face toward her and

Me : thappad mat marna please, I love you P*****.

**awkward silence**

She : I knew this already.

Meanwhile my home came, I jump from the auto like I have done something really terrible. Could not sleep that whole night.

Next day, guess what? She didn’t came.

Never met again.

Days passed, years passed. Cleard IIT jee with good rank got admitted in top iit with good branch. After coming to college searched her on facebook, opened almost 1000 profiles with her name finally found her!, account was private only 78 friends, no chance she going to reply you back and forget getting your friend request accepted. 5th september her birthday, messaged her wishing Birthday without sending a friend request, didn’t got any reply as expected. But one fine day saw a message “Thanks alot” and friend request accepted, jumping, dancing and what not it was one of the happiest moment of my life just imagine getting something when you’ve given up completely.

Started talking, every time I was talking to her there was a smile on my face, I was the most happy man. Frequency increased, time increased we were talking all the time, the liking grew stronger with time. She was not ready for any commitment and I was heels over head for her but she didn’t saw me as a love partner or maybe I didn’t expressed my fellings best but after 2 years I realized this not going to work so asked her to clarify, she said no, told her that I can’t continue this anymore as I like her and there’s no future. Never talked again.

Still miss her everyday!!!