The Nikkah Of Hatred

18| Shanaya's Diary

The door bell rang and Manizah and Ahaan quickly opened the door slowly. Shahyan tip-toed inside the home slowly.

"Madam jege ase? (Is Madam awake?)" Shahyan asked just as he entered the home

"No, she had an extreme headache and took pills for it that is why she's in a deep sleep now" Manizah replied

"Oh, okay I am going to the room" Shahyan exclaimed going towards the room slowly taking footsteps in the floor

Shahyan slowly turned the door's knob to see the room's lights are turned off. The room is pitch black. Shahyan turned on his phone's flashlight and tip-toed to the bathroom and turned on the bathroom's bulb to make the room light up a bit. Shahyan then went towards Shanaya to found her in deep sleep. She had wrapped a cloth around her head due to her extreme headache and had also pulled the comforter over her. Shahyan made sure Shanaya was sleeping than went to the other side of the bed and just as he was about to lie down he saw Shanaya's cupboard was closed properly. Shahyan got up from the bed and just as he was about to close the cupboard properly his eyes got strucked in a diary. The diary was purple coloured with a lock in it.

Shahyan opened the cupboard's drawer and found a little key inside the drawer. Shahyan knew it was bad to read others diary but he knew it was Shanaya's diary because once in Australia in break time he saw this same diary Shanaya's hand she was writing something in that diary. It was a golden opportunity to get to know for Shahyan to get to know about Shanaya's inner feelings about everything. Shahyan sighed loudly before inserting the key inside the diary. As the lock of the diary clicked open, Shahyan opened the diary.

Opening the diary, he starts to read it. The first few chapters were just usual stuffs. Turning over the pages, Shahyan's eyes got strucked in a page. The page's date was 1st May, 2023 meaning the day when Shanaya and Shahyan got to know who was Shanaya's future husband. Shahyan started reading that page.

"I can't believe my parents are forcing me to get married with a guy who hates me and I hate him as well a lot. According to them, Shahyan is a gem and a boy like him is very rare in this generation. Blah Blah! Like seriously they expect me to marry the guy I hate the most? All my life I used to pity upon his future wife who will get a crack head husband like him and now they are asking me to be that guy's wife? Like seriously? No one can handle me. I am the eldest child of my parents. I always try to act stronger but I am actually broken inside. All my life I was bullied in school, had no friends, family issues, friendship break ups. Unlike other girls I never opted for any sort of relationships or had any one sided crush on any guy except for celebrity. I always believed in my destiny that my Allah had written for me. No one can tolerate me. Maybe I deserve to be not loved. I feel alone and superfluous. Being the eldest sibling I have to stay stronger for my siblings I never shared my feelings with them cause I never wanted them to know what I was suffering from. People wounded me with pain a lot. My heart is broken. I don't if I should say yes for this marriage with Shahyan or not. Fictional men doesn't exists so forget that a Hamza from the drama Mere Humsafar is coming for me. I remember this incident with Shahyan. Once a dawat was held in our house everyone had came there. My mom was frustrated for some reason and let out her frustration on me by scolding me hard in front of everyone. As my mom was scolding me in front of everyone I ran from the living room and went inside my room closed it sat on the bed and started crying loud. A 12 year old me was unaware that there was a cockroach looking boy present in my room's balcony. He slowly came out of the balcony and asked in his soft voice "What happened? Why are you crying? Don't cry when you cry you look thousand times more ugly" Like seriously man!😑 "What are you doing here? Shahyan go from here! I am not in a mood to fight with you" I said crying. I was shocked that this cockroach boy was maybe concerned for me? But he was not in his usual fighting mode with me when he asked what happened. "Why are you crying?" He asked again
"What will you do by knowing that? You must be very happy seeing me cry right?" I replied rudely "No, I am not happy please don't cry witch" He replied with his concerned voice. "Shahyan, go away I am already mad don't make more mad" I replied again pissing off at him like what does he wants from me? "Okay, fine I am going away but first you stop crying" He replied "Fine! You go from here" I said wiping my tears off my eyes. He smiled and didn't said anything and quietly left my room. The whole situation makes me rethink that why was he so concerned that day. There are many more incidents like these But first let me go and say yes for this marriage with this cockroach. Diary don't ask me why I said yes for this marriage? Because I don't know myself why I said yes for this marriage😭 But I do know for one thing that he will never let me cry :⁠-⁠)"

And as we all know Shahyan never let a single tear shed from Shanaya's eyes. "I wish I knew myself why was I concerned for you that day" Shahyan thought. Shahyan didn't knew what to say knowing Shanaya's inner feelings. He never thought that she suffered so much.

The Next Morning

13th September, 2023

Shanaya's phone rang loudly. Shanaya in deep sleep answered the call.

"Hello? Tomar pasher Jon ki akhono beche ase? (Is the one sleeping besides you is still alive?)" Sonia said from the other side of the phone

"Ammu jalaiona shokal shokal amar prochur matha betha ar jeno Ami shopno dekhtesi je Wahaj Ali Amar Baba toh amake shopno tah dekhte dao Bhalo Moton (Ammu please don't annoy me this early morning I have a extreme headache and do you know I am seeing dream where Wahaj Ali is my father so let me enjoy the dream)" Shanaya mumbled in sleep

"What? You are seeing in dream that Wahaj Ali is your father? My Jaan baccha okay sleep peacefully and enjoy the dream and do tell me about it" Sonia exclaimed

"Fine!"

"Allah Hafiz"

"Allah Hafiz"

Just after hanging up the phone Shanaya turned to the other side. Suddenly, Shanaya screamed loudly. Hearing her scream a poor Shahyan woke up and got scared.

"What happened? Why are you screaming? ugh!" Shahyan replied putting his hand on his head

"What are you doing here?" Shanaya asked pointing her middle finger at Shahyan's chest

"I am sleeping here! Can't you see that a handsome man is sleeping?" Shahyan replied rubbing his eyes in sleep

"Shahyan I am not in a mood to argue with you tell me clearly why are you here?" Shanaya said huffing at him

"The extra key of my residence got lost which is why I had to came to your place" Shahyan replied in a annoyed voice

"Really?" Shanaya asked narrowing her brows at him

"Yes! What do you want to know more? Can you just let me sleep peacefully?" Shahyan replied huffing at Shanaya

"Shahyan you are just so annoying!" Shanaya said rolling her eyes at him

"Then what are you?" Shahyan replied annoyingly

"I am a normal human and you are a cockroach that's the only difference between us" Shanaya replied shrugging shoulders at Shahyan

"If I am a cockroach then you are a lizard" Shahyan replied

"UGH!"

"UGH!"

Both huffed in annoyance and started hitting each other with pillow.