Lovelorn Affaire

Prologue

PROLOGUE

What the fuck, love.

Blossom

Guys, only chase after lust.
Don't they?
It's like they're allergic
With pure love.

"Ma'am, hindi po 'to isang Lugar para mag skandalo kayo." Pigil sa 'kin ng bartender. "Hindi kuya eh," Galit Kong sabat.

"Bastos 'to eh! Putanginang manyak, hindi ka ba nadala sa isang tingin at hawak ha?! Dapat sa inyo namamatay. Dapat sa inyo pinuputulan ng tite eh." Pasampal na sana ako sa lalaki na nasa harapan ko nang pinaalis ako ng mga security guard.

Totoo naman sinabi ko. Hindi Sila nadadala sa isang tingin, isang halik, at isang hawak. All they care about is sex.

Umiiyak akong papunta sa kabilang bar para uminom ulit. Minahal ko naman s'ya. Ginawa ko naman lahat. Bakit gan'on ibibigay niya sa 'kin? Cheating on another woman.

Uminom ako ng ilang basong beer, hindi ko na maibilang. Wala na akong paki.

Bumibigat na ang aking mata at umiikot na ang alak na aking ininom sa aking katawan. Hindi ko na kaya tumayo, feeling ko babagsak na lang ako pag ginawa ko.

"Hey, miss?" May narinig akong isang malalim na boses sa aking tabi, I look at him with tired eye. Sino naman 'to.

Lumapit siya sa 'kin, hindi ko narinig ang mga sinasabi niya. Nasusuka na 'ko.

***

My head hurts. I don't remember anything, I woke up in an unfamiliar place. A hotel? I don't remember going in a hotel. A ping hurts my head, I try remembering what happened. Wh-what did I just do . . . ?

I heard the door opened, I saw my body being covered in an oversized shirt. Without underwear.

A man appeared, he looks at me with an apologetic eyes and a soft smile. He greeted me, "good morning"

Binato ko ang unan sa kaniya out of shock, "S-sino ka?!" I blurted out of anxiousness. He sighed and picked the pillow up, "I didn't do anything without your permission. You're simply the one forcing yourself on me, Ms." He walked closer to me.

"Here," he showed me a medicine. "Pang patanggal hangover." He put the pillow back on the bed, shit.

I remember everything now.

Kinuha ko ang gamot sa kaniya at ininom ito, "S-sorry, nalasing lang Ako. I don't know what's wrong with me." I feel so ashamed, so fucking shameful.

Ironic, may pasabi pa akong mga lalaki habol lang ay sex tapos ako rin naman dito nakipag one-night stand sa isang hindi ko kilala.

I hear him revealed a sigh again, "I'll go now, hopefully you'll be able to moved on." Napatanga ako sa kaniya nang may pagtataka. Pa'no niya alam, nag-rant rin ba ako sa kaniya?

At last, he gave me a cheerful smile. Encouraging me everything was just fine.

Putangina ka blossom! Bwiset, bwiset! I slap myself all over the time while walking home, my body is so sore. I can barely walk. Sobrang intense ba ng ginawa namin last night? Ang landi!

Sumakay ako ng UV van at napabuntong-hininga, I rest my head on the header. Nagpatugtog si kuyang driver. Masakit na nga ulo ko.

"A few stolen moments is all that we share." Narinig ko ang first line ng kanta. Napatingin ako sa labas ng bintana ng van. Kabit core ang music taste ni manong driver ha.

"You've got your family and they need you there." I started reminiscing about my ex boyfriend who cheated on me. At that time, I swore to myself i'm never gonna be those woman who doesn't have one single respect in themselves at sa kapwa babae nila. Pumapasok sa isang relasyon na alam nilang may karelasyon na.

"Though I've tried to resist being last on your list." The last thing I'll ever be is to be just like my mother. To be a mistress.

"But no other man's gonna do
So I'm saving all my love for you." Patuloy ang pagtugtog ng radyo ng driver ng van na sinasaktan ko. Parang nakakainis na Kasi mas lalo niya itong nilakasan sa chorus. Para bang . . .

I shook my head and pulled out my phone,  27 missed calls "Kabit kong nanay"

I ignored it, I'm sure na nasa bahay na naman siya ng so-called tatay ko. Nahuli na nga once hindi pa talaga tumigil eh.

Lakas rin talaga pag mang-aagaw.

I sighed and turn my phone off, waiting for my destination. My mother's home.

Kahit pa-paano nanay ko pa rin naman s'ya, i still seek comfort within her. She was able to give me everything I need and want, well except for a physical and loveable father.

Sure, mayaman tatay ko. He provides for us, pero hindi nga ako magawang tawagin na anak. Hindi rin s'ya uma-attend dati sa mga family program sa school ko. He only comes whenever a problem occurred in his house.

In short, I'm a mistake.

Lumabas na ako ng UV nang makarating na ako sa tapat ng village kung saan ang bahay ng aking nanay. I breathe deeply.

I walk slowly, I walk towards a house lack of love—a true love. Habang papunta sa tahanan na minsan ko lang puntahan, nararamdaman ko na naman ang bigat ng aking puso. I just found myself in front of a 2 story house with an oak door. I open the door and enter the house with a heavy heart.

Nakita ko ang aking nanay na tumatawa kasama ang Isang lalaki. My father . . . ?

Napatingin sila sa 'kin nang maramdaman nila ang aking presensya. Their smiles dropped, my mom stand up straight and the guy she's with fixed his shirt.

"Napa-uwi ka?" My mother tilt her head.

Lumapit sa 'kin ang lalaki at may ibinigay na sobre, great. Another money from my no good and so-called father.

Bigla siyang umalis. Tangina, Wala man lang siya sinabi. Sometimes I wonder how does it feel to have a real father's love.

I ignored my mother's question and went straight to my bedroom, it's been so long since I've been here.

Even if this house feels no love, I still find comfort in here.

To be continued
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