stop sugar coating life

Fading Memories

We are advised grief is normal

but I wish it didn't exist, sometimes

I wish I didn't feel the need to squint my eyes

every time I try to remember you

since it has been so long

only photographs are proof of our love now

my thoughts had replaced your voice

and your clothes now smell normal

not like your usual floral perfume

That will always be engraved

so young yet so much pain

remembering their words trying to comfort me

it never worked

now all I feel is humiliation

when I let them through

let them be seen

hopefully, they haven't noticed

think to myself

I've been successful so far

not the closest being has heard a peep out of me

although it might even help

to get help

be free, once again

like it used to be when your presence wasn't just a memory

part of me wants to remember you

even through all the grief that comes with

I don't wish your voice to keep fading

day by day a whisper so faint

a gust of wind would knock it over

until you are just linked to me by blood

remembrance from the old 

hopefully, I won't forget

even with all the emotions that your love comes with

hopefully, I'll figure it out one day

while I still remember you.