Too Late // GeorgeNap

Too Late

The photo at the top is witawwy George rn
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Did you know Sapnap used to have the fattest crush on George? It's true. He confessed to George multiple times throughout their years of friendship, and everytime, George would reject him. At first he was nice about it saying things like "oh You're still young, find someone better for you," or "Sorry, I don't like you like that," but eventually, George gave up on kindness. As their bond grew stronger, George felt more comfortable to be downright cruel. Laughing in his face and giving him harsh rejections. He always felt a pang of guilt in his chest, but that was their dynamic. That was how they were, Sapnap knew that.

But he had a problem. All of those years ago, he was so naive and blind to how he felt. Now he realizes that he is stupid in love with Sapnap. Every time he insults him, he wants to hug him and apologize a million times while confessing his love to him. He wants to wake up next to him every morning. He wants to wrap his arms around his waist and kiss his cheeks. He wants to love him.

But when he tells Sapnap, he's met with a response that shatters his world. When he pours his heart out to Sapnap, puts all of his trust in him to be vulnerable like that, he just scoffs in his face and says "so it took you almost 8 years of hurting me and laughing in my face before you realized you felt the same? That's low, even for you. Sorry George, but I'm already talking to someone else," and George was heartbroken.

"W-wait- no-"

"Don't, George. Just don't. I waited for this moment our whole friendship, and when I finally got the message that I wasn't wanted in that way, you decide to go and pull this shit? That's fucked. You- god! You're so fucking selfish," Sapnap sadly scolds before walking off and slamming the front door.

George feels so shitty. So fucking shitty. Partially because he just got the worst rejection of his life- a literal scoff- and partially because he knows how much he hurt Sapnap. He was in the wrong and he knew that.

He deserved so much more than a little scoff. Sapnap should have pointed and laughed, humiliated him in front of all of their friends and gotten them to laugh too. That was a better punishment for hurting Sapnap.

But Sapnap said he was talking to someone else, and George was fuming. They probably had no idea what they had. They probably thought of Sapnap as just another hookup when they should be thanking Sapnap just for taking the time to look in their direction. But when he found out that this 'someone' was a mutual friend of theirs', he felt a bit better. But also worse. At least he would be cared for. At least he would be taken care of, and he wouldn't be hurt. If he was being completely honest with himself, he would probably treat Sapnap 10x better than George ever could.

But sadly, this has also caused a drift between George and their friend.

Everytime Sapnap announces he's going out, George mutters something like "to see that asshole again?" To himself, but Sapnap always hears. Sapnap always just says something like "cut it out" or "Shut the fuck up," and he means it those times. He doesn't have that fond smile or endearing tone when he says it, no. He's genuinely upset at George.

Eventually, George's jealousy becomes too much and they get into a big fight. Worse than any of their other fights. They're yelling, screaming, insulting each other and it's... it's not good. At some point sapnap yells "you can't keep hurting me and rejecting me, and then expect me to come right back to you once I've finally found someone else who actually treats me like someone with fucking emotions! You did this to yourself! You're too late!" And at this point Sapnap was crying, just so heartbroken by this whole situation. George just shuts his mouth because Sapnap was right. He was a complete and total asshole who should have handled this situation so much better. He shouldn't have laughed at Sapnap, shouldn't have rejected him in such a mean way, shouldn't have been so possessive. He could have at least tried things out with him. Now he's the one getting laughed at and rejected, making Sapnap cry, and he deserves so much worse.

"Well I'm fucking sorry that I love you!" George cried.

"Do you, though? Do you actually, because you don't treat someone you love like this! God how can you be so selfish and act so fucking innocent all at once?!" Sapnap yelled.

"I do love you, Nick, I do! I've been trying to have a damn conversation with you but you just- you shut me out!" George yelled back.

"Maybe it's because that's all you did!" Sapnap screamed. George's mouth snapped shut. "I fucking!- God you... I can't stand to see you right now. I'm gonna stay with Tony for a while," Sapnap slowly calmed down.

"No Nick- please-"

"Shut the fuck up for once. I'm going to stay with him for a while, and I don't want to see you at his door with those stupid puppy dog eyes. Matter of fact, I don't even want to hear that you were at his house," Sapnap spat, bitter and filled with anger.

And George respected that rule. He let Sapnap go. He let him go, let him be free. They didn't even talk for two whole months and George? Well, George didn't seem to be handling it so well. The only person he had actual communication with was Dream, and he had no idea how to make this situation better. Dream was slowly starting to see him resort to his old habits, and it was scary. He only heard about how bad George's state was in London, but if this is anything like it, he has no idea how George survived that long without any support. George never, and I mean never left his room. The door was locked and Dream was seriously considering breaking it down at times because of the lack of sound coming from his room. The only signs of life he had was the sound of George's shower starting, which at this point, was a rare occurrence, or the sound of his mini fridge opening- at least George was keeping himself somewhat fed- and don't get Dream started on the amount of times he's heard George crying. Dream would know George left his room if he came home from getting groceries, and found a bunch of new dishes in the cupboard or dishwasher.

Dream was fucking worried. And so pissed at Sapnap. He understands George did a shitty thing, and he knows Sapnap is really hurt by this, but it takes effort to get George to a state like this. He knows Sapnap is hurting, but at least he sought out love and support and is receiving it. Sapnap is actually talking to someone and getting help. George won't let himself get help. It's almost as if George wants to feel like this. Like he thinks he's punishing himself for hurting Sapnap all those weeks- months ago.

How does he know Sapnap is getting help? Because he has been visiting. And his first visit there was quite frankly, disappointing to Dream. Sapnap heard his car pull up, and he immediately assumed George came to apologize. Dream did not appreciate the greeting he got when Sapnap thought he was George. Long story short, no one should start a conversation by yelling at you to fuck off and- "I said I never wanted to see you again!"- regardless of what they did. At least say "hi" or "what do you want". That's basic human decency.

But he knows Sapnap is getting love and support because Sapnap looks and sounds healthy. He's his same happy, chirpy self, only a bit quieter and less energetic. He's obviously eating normal sized portions because Dream has watched him have every meal. And his hair looks healthy, and he doesn't stink so he's obviously having regular showers. Meanwhile George was back at home killing himself. Hopefully not literally, but at this rate, that's becoming a genuine concern for Dream. All this and Sapnap doesn't even care to say George's name! He gets George hurt him but come on! How does Sapnap not even have the decency to ask about him?! Even some petty shit like "is he still moping?" Is better than nothing!

But there was one time Dream brought him up.
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