Ups And Downs (EddiexJuicy)

Am I Gay? - Chapter 3

Eddie POV

Why was Juicy acting weird. Was he mad about me taking Apollo? I didn't mean to scare him. I just know that he's been through a lot and wanted to help. I get snatched out of my thoughts when he started running down the stairs. 

J- "Hey Eddie?'

E- "Yeah?"

J- "Do you wanna go out tonight? I kinda just wanna drink my feeling away at the moment."

E- "Yeah sure. I can take apollo over to Narrator's so he can watch him. "

J- "Okay. I'm gonna go get ready."

E-" Okay. I'll be waiting."

I watched him run up the stairs. While i waited i called Narrator.

(Phone ringing) (E-Eddie N-Narrator)

N- "Hey Eddie. How's it going?"

E- "Pretty good. Juicy is here."

N- "Oh really? Is he with her?"

E- "Actually, she cheated on him, and he needed a place to stay. So, he is here."

(Apollo barks)

N- "I didn't know you had a dog."

E- "I don't. Juicy brought him. That's actually why I was calling."

N- "Yes."

E- "You don't even-"

N- "I will watch him while you and Juicy go out somewhere."

E- "Okay thanks man. I'll see you in a bit."

N- "See ya." 

When he hung up, Juicy was running down the stairs. He looked really good. Nobody knows that I'm gay because i don't want everyone to hate me. Even though they probably won't, I am just still scared. 

Juicy POV

After i got dressed, i went downstairs to see if Eddie and Apollo were ready to go. As i walked down, Eddie was just staring at me. I thought it was kind of weird but i didn't think too much of it.

J- "You ready to go?

E-" Yeah. Also, Narrator knows were coming with Apollo."

J-" Okay good."

E- "Why are you wearing long sleeves? It's like 90 degrees outside?"

I froze i didn't know what to tell him. I obviously couldn't tell him that i cut myself.

J- "I just wanted to. Long sleeve shits are my sad shirts."

E- "Oh okay. Let's go."

We dropped Apollo off and were driving to the bar. Eddie kept looking over at me. i started growing tired of it. I don't like getting pity looks. I wanted to say something but i knew he just cared. He looked over at me again and i started to get butterflies again. I didn't want these feelings. I Just wanted it to stop.

J- "Why do you keep looking at me?"

E- "What do you mean?"

J- "You keep looking over at me. I can see you."

E- "I don't know what you're talking about. I'm just driving."

J- "C'mon Eddie. I'm not stupid. Tell me why you keep looking at me."

E-" Okay. I keep looking because, well, I feel bad. No one, especially someone astonishing as you should have to go through something like this."

I felt myself heat up and blush at those words. I'm not gay, but I think i might have feelings for Eddie. 

E-" Are you blushing?"

J- "No. I'm not."

How the fuck did he see it? It's so dark in this car. What do i do? What do i say?

E- "Hold up."

J-" Why are you pulling the car over?"

E- *sighs* "No one knows this. I don't know why i am so scared to say it, but I'm gay."

I sat there, shocked. Eddie's gay? How long has he known? Why was he telling me this?

E- "I guess I've just been scared because, well, i have feelings for, you."

J- "What?"

E- "I'm sorry. I know i should've told you, but you are getting over your breakup and everything and i just didn't wanna say anything, but yeah."

J- "Um."

E- "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything. Let's just get to the bar and forget this ever happened."

I stopped him. I don't know what came over me, but something told me to stop him from driving to that bar.

J- "I don't want to go to the bar anymore. I don't want to go anywhere just yet. Let's just stay here. Soak in the moment."

Eddie POV

My heart dropped when he touched my arm. Everything was spinning. My heart was beating a thousand miles a minute and i felt like i was about to have a heart attack, but in a good way.

J- "I don't want to go to the bar anymore. I don't want to go anywhere just yet. Let's just stay here. Soak in the moment."

My heart started beating faster. I thought it was about to jump out of my chest. We stared into each other's eyes and just sat there. I didn't want to kiss him because i didn't know if he was gay or not even though there were signs.

J- "I don't know what's been going on with me, but i think i have feelings for you too. I don't know if I'm gay or not but i know what having a crush feels like."

E- "I don't know. I just know that you are the one i have been waiting for. You are the one i love, even if you don't feel the same. I will always love you Juice. No matter what."

Something came over me, but i slowly leaned into kiss him. He didn't back away. Instead, he leaned in connecting our lips together. It felt like fireworks going off in my chest. Everything around me stopped moving and it felt like everything in this moment was meant to be.

Juicy POV

He started leaning in slowly but i grew impatient and leaned in joining our lips together. I don't know what this feeling was but it just felt right. I wanted to do more even though i didn't even know i was gay until now. I climbed on top of him and he leaned his chair back. We were still kissing and i entered my tongue into his mouth to deepen the kiss. It wasn't enough, i was craving more.

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