Nadira
'dilkashi'
Attraction,apeal,beauty,loveliness,
CharmThe perfect word to describe what I'm feeling right now
like a tulip blossoming into its best form by the warm touch of that special someone
Why did he make me feel this way when I'd swore to myself I'd never feel that way for anyone again
I'd never let my guard down infront of any man no matter there intentions with me
So why am I so calm when I'm near him and why do I trust him so easily why do I feel so safe in your kingdom,your castle,room and when I'm so close to you
Like you'd take me in your embrace if i even breath while holding eye contact with your beautiful brown eyes
Maybe I'm falling in love again
And I had told myself never again,
But I let myself slip again
His oak brown eyes make it impossible to refrain,
And I'm falling in love againBut why so easily when I just met him ,i don't even know what he likes to eat what his hobbies are or if he even want's me here
Why do I wear my heart on my sleeve, giving it away to someone I just met Just because he smiled at me
Am I really that desperate
Or maybe it's just attraction, it cannot be love it's not possible that I can love someone again after him
Right
It's just a silly crush I'm sure it'll go away when I actually get to know him
Men are just the same
"Nadira?"
Suddenly he said letting the book leave his hands he came closer to me and bent on his knees to reach for my eyes
"Are you alright" he said with worry coating his eyes like he actually cared
Yaah rabb
Why does his words always melt me
Indeed I'm very weak
I cannot even except that good men exist because one tainted me with bad memories
I'm so selfish to even think about him like this, I do not deserve him
I looked into his oak brown eyes gazing into mine with worry
My knuckles turned white knowing i once looked into someone's eyes with the same warmth the same worry and the same love as him right now but all I got in return was a scar on my dignity and shame that's never gonna leave my heart until the day I'm all cold without a single movement in my body
My heart sank deeper knowing I'd hurt him unknowingly, I'm a tornado right now I'll catch him in my pain if I try to go a little closer
My eyes turned teary and my lashes felt heavy with the weight of all the sins I'd committed
I'm not a Pious woman, I'm burdened with the weight of my sins
Regret and guilt eat me alive at times, wishing so much i could undo my crimes
But there is no undoing that can possibly be done to my own doing
I'm the one who committed to acts of sin and no one is responsible for that
I'm only scared of the day when it's the end of Times
When my days will come to an end
And all will know my sins, my crimes
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SAFAR E ISHQ
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