Get Over it

I'm okay

One step. Breath. You got this? Breath. Are you okay now? STOP! Look if you can just breath you'll be fine. Do you think I'm okay? I could tell you I am but would you really leave me be. I didn't think so. So let me explain something to you. Sometimes in my own little world I start to feel empty, stuck and I can understand that I am but then I question why it won't go away. This stupid little feeling of emptiness, believing everything is great and okay. It is okay right? It could be I suppose maybe I don't really understand that feeling. Being okay. I'll never know maybe I can go to the doctor. They'll have some answers for me regardless of what it is I'll listen. I promise. I may never touch anything because I am scared of ruining my mind. Having something take a bit of it away, of who I am. I never think of myself as complex when it comes to my mind over processing life. That could be anxiety. I don't know and I may never. So what now, hope it always goes away. I don't feel okay sometimes especially when I'm in this mind set. I hate myself for it but who doesn't hate themselves a little. I can't be the only one right? I'll be okay. It's normal. I'm okay.