"Hala! May bagong upload na song cover si Jude!" Napatingin ako sa mga nagkumpulan kong mga kaklase. I smiled when I heard Jude's voice. He's singing Make you mine by Public.
His voice is so good and charming. Plus his bewitching looks. He's the type who could bring you to heaven at any moment. Kaya sobrang dami niyang fans all over the world and I'm so happy that out of his fangirls, he chose me.
I opened my phone and got a text from him. Sabi niya ay nasa labas na siya ng school.
"Look! Duet sila rito ni Francine! Ang sweet. Bagay na bagay sila!"
Literal akong napatigil. Francine is a singer too. Madalas na rin silang nagcocollab ni Jude kasi malaki ang impact nila sa audience. Mayroon na nga rin silang loveteam but I don't care. I have Jude's heart anyway.
Kinuha ko ang mga gamit ko at nagmadaling lumabas. Katatapos lang ng meet up niya with his fangirls sa San Fernando, La Union pero pumunta pa rin siya rito para sunduin ako.
When I opened the door, I saw him playing on his phone. Umupo ako sa tabi niya. I gave him a kiss on his chicks.
"Hi, handsome," I greeted. He didn't look at me. He just pouted. I chuckled and gave him a quick kiss on his lips. "Ang demanding, ha."
He's playing happy mall story. I suggested it kahit parang pambata. Pero nilalaro niya pa rin hanggang ngayon, so cute.
He snaked his arms around my waist and put his head on my shoulder. "I miss you...so much."
"I miss you too." I caressed his hair. "Dapat dumiretso ka nalang sa bahay ninyo. You need to get some rest—"
"But you're my source of strength," he whispered. I gently pinched his nose . He buried his face on my neck.
"Ang corny mo," I chuckled.
"Put your hand in mine..." I smiled when he started singing with his husky voice. He interwined our fingers.
"You know that I want to be with you all the time. You know that I won't stop until I make you mine..." he paused and kissed my forehead. "Until I make you mine..."
"I'm already yours," I whispered. A smile softly trailed on his lips. Kinikilig na naman ang kupal.
The car stopped in front of their house. I bid my good bye to Jude as I closed the door. Gusto pa nga sana niyang sumama na ihatid ako but I refused. He looked so tired and I want him to rest.
When the car starts moving, I noticed Mommy Mary Cecille. Nakatingin siya sa akin. She is Jude's manager. Everyone's calling her Mommy because 'yon ang gusto niya.
I gave her a smile. "Bakit po, Mommy?"
"I need to talk to you." I didn't replied, anticipating for her next words.
"You know, Francine and Jude, napakaganda ng collaboration nila. Maraming nagsasabi na bagay sila, na mas maganda kung maging sila na lang—"
"Gusto mo po akong makipaghiwalay sa kanya," I sarcastically cut her off. She gave me a weary smile and nodded.
"Y-Yes, I'm sorry—"
"You want to break someone's heart para sa kasikatan? Para mas umangat? Ganoon po ba 'yon mommy?" A tear escaped from my eye. This is my most hated part. When a manager is becoming selfish just for fame.
"Francine and Jude will make theirselves more famous. Don't be selfish, Ivy. Alam mong matagal na itong pangarap ni Jude. Ang makilala ang pangalan niya. Let him go. Walang patutunguhan ang relasyon ninyong dalawa. One day, Jude will need to choose between you and his career. By looking at him? He'll definitely choose you," she paused and heaved a sigh. "Please understand the situation. Sana maintindihan mo ang mga sinasabi ko, Ivy."
I closed the door with tears leaking from my eyes. Pinanood kong makaalis ang kotse hanggang sa hindi ko na ito matanaw.
Do I need to sacrifice our relationship...
Do I need to let him go?
Nagiging hadlang na ba ako sa pag-abot niya ng kanyang mga pangarap?
"Excuse me, excuse me po." Nakikipagsiksikan ako sa mga tao para lamang makuha ang tumilapon na suklay ni Camille. Jusko, mahal din ang suklay na 'to, eh. Nakapanghihinayang din.
Inaya ako nina Camille at Jean na manood ng ASAP ngayon. They want to see their idols live. Wala rin naman akong magawa sa bahay kaya sumama na rin ako.
"Huli ka," I whispered when I saw Camille's comb, malapit sa stage. Ang layo pa ng narating ko para rito.
"Put your hand in mine. You know that I want to be with you all the time. You know that I won't stop until I make you mine..." Napatigil ako nang marinig muli ang kantang iyon.
My heart tightened in my chest. My soul shattered into a million tiny pieces. It's been three months since I stopped hearing this song. Pinaaalala lang ng kantang iyon ang hindi na dapat maalala pa.
Dahan-dahan kong inangat ang aking paningin, there I saw Jude. I saw Jude after three fucking months.
"Until I make you mine..." He held Francine's hands. Parang dati lang kamay ko pa ang hinahawakan mo. Ang bilis, tangina.
That's the last song he sang for me. Pero kinakanta niya na iyon para sa iba.
His brown eyes met mine. His eyes widened, just a tiny bit. Sadness were evident in his eyes. Sorry for hurting you Jude, I'm sorry.
I saw hesitation from his eyes. Gusto niya akong puntahan but he can't, he's still performing at malaking issue iyon kung lalapit siya sa akin.
It broke my heart when I saw a tear escaped from his eye. Damn, akin 'yan dati.
"Ivy..." he mouthed. When he stepped closer, umiling ako. Don't do this, Jude. 'Wag na nating pahirapan pa ang sarili natin.
Tumalikod ako at dali-daling umalis doon. Let's just accept the reality. Ibang-iba na ang mundong ginagalawan natin.
You're already on top. You are now like a star na hinding hindi ko na maaabot pa.
Just be happy with Francine, please. Be happy.
You know that i won't stop until i make you mine..
But i stop.
