Not Strong Enough Too Speak Up

punished for crimes she didn't do

She was the victim of smear campaigns from the age of 8 when she started standing up for herself
The boys that she said no too and sometimes even had to put in their place taking that no as a insult I guess, they started calling her the town bike even though she was too young to even be that and they didn't seem too see a problem with all the lies they were saying

When she did tell her truth she got told too shut up, his life would be ruined or that she was lieing, even telling the cops they couldn't do anything it was her word against theirs and there where more of them so their word was believed over hers

What about her life, they didn't think about how they were ruining her life when they did what they did
But I guess the guys life was more important than hers in the eyes of the ones she tried too tell

So she learnt at a very young age that keeping quiet was all that would work

Learning to shrug off all the things they said with ease and learning that what others said didn't matter she knew the truth of everything that happened

Also learning sometimes standing up for yourself isn't worth it people are going to believe what they want to believe making that fire within her just burn into a rage that she couldn't always contain, sometimes taking her anger out on those that didn't actually deserve it and bringing out a bit of a split personality from it all

Too some she was a angel while others only seen the demons within her begging to be unleashed on the world, mistaking that for who she was rather than realising the traumatic experience she had been through at her young age where the reason for it all

She got sent to theory for more than just one thing and by more than one person
Even the teachers and local cops sent her too theory for anger management
Alot she got sent too talk too said they couldn't help her but what they really should of said was Ive helped you as much as I'm qualified for and you may be able to be helped more by this other person
But because of the wording they used she started to believe that she just was beyond help, that no one knew how too help
Alot couldn't, how can you help someone unless you understand what they have been through, you can't
You can only give them the tools and help you know how too provide and alot of the tools she got given didn't help her since her trauma was deeper than she was even willing to admit at that age

She knew what everyone said behind her back but all the talk others said didn't hurt her until the day she became a victim of a smear campaign from someone she trusted and loved, they did it in the finest of ways when she was a teenage

They put graffiti all over town with her name added to it
On the signs they knew she would walk past and all over the school she went too
she knew exactly who it was by their hand writing but when the cops came too her doorstep too ask questions and even walked her around too all the graffiti she didn't tell them who it was her loyalty ran deeper than that
Even with now knowing where there's was she refused to tell them so she took the punishment for them

Getting sent to do community service at the elderly home and put on local clean up jobs
she started too see the world she was growing up in, in a completely different light

So she went back too theory this time willingly as she learnt and listened rather than just shutting down or reacting to everything they said and when she got passed onto a new therapist she didn't take it personally she realised there was only so much some could help with