Petals Of Us

POU55

Shit.

Shit.

I'm vacillating between escaping and just dealing with the embarrassment. Damn I didn't know I knew how to feel embarrassed. Wala naman akong hiya madalas sa buong buhay ko.

Ngayon lang.

Ipinasok ko na sa bag 'yung binalik ni Sir na assignment at tumalikod sa gawi ng hagdan dahil doon manggagaling si Reiam.

Nagcellphone ako kahit hindi ko alam ang gagawin. Pinang-oopen ko ang gallery, Instagram, Twitter kahit wala talagang pumapasok sa isip ko bukod sa kailangan ko siyang harapin. Fuck. Parang lalabas yung puso ko.

I swallowed hard when I can already hear someone's approaching. Nagpatuloy ako sa pagpapanggap na busy sa cellphone.

Nahagip kaagad ng ilong ko ang pamilyar na amoy niya nang dumiretso siya ng lakad papuntang harapan ko mismo. Oh ayan na crush mo, ano ka ngayon? Shit talaga!

My eyes glued at his black shoes and messenger bag. Slowly, I lifted my eyes on him. He fixed his thick eyeglasses with his forefinger. I was stunned for a moment. Guwapo talaga siya. Countless times I thought about attempting to kiss his cheek.

Seriously?! Carviah? Ayan talaga tumatakbo sa isip mo? For sure si Reiam puro kabutihan at kalinisan laman ng isip sakin! Tapos ako... Shit talaga.

He's a certified nerd. By looks, brain, and personality. I'm not saying this to paint nerds as weird or whatever, just that if I would think of the very best example of it, it's gonna be him. Never ever my type. But look at me now shaking after a nerve-wracking confession.

"You're going home?"

I smiled. "P-Pwede naman. Pero pwede ring hindi pa. Ikaw?"

Tinagilid niya ang ulo at seryoso akong tinignan.

"Why do you look so pale?"

Namumutla pa nga.

Syempre, takot mareject!

"Talaga? Nabura na yata lipstick ko." I took a pocket size mirror to prove a point.

Lalo akong nahiya nang sobrang halata yung panginginig ng kamay ko habang nananalamin.

It's not helping that he's watching me carefully. I closed the mirror and put it inside my bag again. I smiled sweetly at him. Nakakahalata na 'to.

He sighed and went closer. Napaatras ako!

"B-Bakit?"

Marahan niyang hinawakan  ang palapulsuhan ko. Pinanood niya ang kamay kong medyo tensyunado pa rin.

His eyebrows furrowed as he watched one evidence of my chaotic insides right now.

"Why are you shaking? What happened? May problema sa assignment mo?"

Hindi ako nakapagsalita.

He held my chin to examine my face properly as if he'll get an answer there.

I looked at his cheek, nose, and lips. I licked mine. I saw how his adam's apple moved when his eyes reached my lips, too.

He's not really hard to like. Kahit walang gawin. Walang sabihin. It's not only because of his looks. There's really something in him that will make you stare.. think about him.. and desire to experience being with him again.

Yes, at first I was challenged. Damn, I can get a boyfriend anytime and anywhere I want. But it was really hard before to make him even look at me, like literally. I took it as a goal, to be seen by him.