Chasing sunsets

Chapter 14- End of life sign

JEMA

It's been a week since andito ako sa laguna

Napansin nila mama yung mood changes, biglang pagsakit ng ulo ko, and my speech problem

Yun yung mga common signs sa Grade 3 glioma

Baka nga hindi na Grade 3 yung Glioma ko

Naka higa lang ako sa kwarto, pinapa dalhan nila mama ng pagkain

I can't even talk properly

And from time to time yung sakit ng ulo ko

Konting tiis nalang,Jema

Konting tiis pa

I've been experiencing seizures and
wala na akong ganang kumain

My body's getting weak, and I can feel it

The end of my life

I've been sleeping more than usual din

Ang kulit nila mama, sabi nila dadalhin daw nila ako sa hospital because I'm having seizures

Pina dial ko na sakanila yung number ni doc Gonzales

Gladly, He can come here sa bahay and he'll check me up

"I'm sorry, Mr. and Mrs. Galanza, but your daughter has grade IV Gliobastoma. And it's an end of life sign" I heard the doctor say

I heard mama crying

Si tatay naman, nasa gilid ni mama

My vision was all blurry, and sumasakit ang ulo ko

"a-anak, Jema" that's the last thing I heard before passing out

I woke up and minasahe ang sentido ko

I saw mama sleeping beside me

Tatayo na sana ako nang pumasok si tatay sa kwarto

Dali niya naman akong ina alalay

"Oh, jema anak. Dahan dahan lang. Dyan ka lang muna nak" sambit niya

He carried me papunta sa higaan

"Okay ka lang ba?"he asked

I want to vomit

Isa din pala sa mga symptoms ng may Grade IV Gliobastoma ang pag suka

Doctor told them about it

Nag aantay lang ako

Nagkuha si tatay ng planggana at tsaka dun na ako sumuka

"eto anak, tubig" sambit niya

Hindi na ako nagsalita pa at tsaka ininom ng tubig

I gave him a thumbs up at tsaka humiga na

My vision was all blurry,and sumasakit nanaman ang ulo ko

"anak,anak?" Rinig kong sabi ni dad

And then I passed out again

Pag gising ko, andito na ulit si Doc

Hindi ba siya pina uwi nila mama?

I closed my eyes and nakinig sa pinag uusapan nila

"Your daughter kanina had seizures. That's one of the symptoms na nabanggit ko sainyo a while ago" rinig kong sabi ng doctor

Umiiyak lang si mama

How can I leave kung ganito sina mama?

I hate to see them like this

"J-jema anak" Narinig kong sabi ni mama

I felt her lips on my hand

"Mahal na mahal ka namin ng tatay mo, Konting tiis nalang anak ha?" she sobbed

I wanted to cry, pero Pinipigilan ko

I'm sorry, mama, tatay, mafe

Sina ate Jia pala and kyla, Alam kong hinahanap nila ako

I have 3 weeks left

Konting oras nalang

"J-jema, b-bakit" It's tatay

I hate this

Ayoko ng ganito

Don't make this too hard for me, please

"S-sana...S-sana m-maging masaya k-ka dun h-ha? B-bisitahin m-mo kami ng m-mama at k-kapatid mo... A-anak" Sambit ni tatay

Si mafe, hindi pa pala alam ni mafe

I heard the door opened

"A-ate" It was mafe

I felt her hugging me

mariin kong ipinikit ang mata ko

Pucha, sumasakit nanaman ang ulo ko

"A-ate, h-hindi mo k-kami i-iiwan diba? a-ate diba s-sabi mo... s-sabi mo m-maglalaro tayo ng v-volleyball...a-ate,s-sumali ako sa u-ust women's volleyball team para sayo... A-ate naman w-wag mo kaming iwan" mafe sobbed

I'm sorry mafs,I can't take it anymore

Hindi ko na kaya, and I've already accepted the fact na mamamatay na ako

I should tell them about the letter

Pero hindi ko masabi

I opened my eyes

I saw their faces,full of tears and sadness

I pointed my study table kaya napa tingin sila dun

"a-ate?" sambit ni Mafe

"S-study...t-table" I softly said

Tumango naman siya at pumunta sa study table ko

Kinuha niya ang envelope

It contains my letter for them, For my bestfriends, and kay Ella

My final goodbye

Kinuha naman nila yun at binasa sa harap ko