The shards of our friendship is all that I have left,
Lying cold and lost for so long.
If touched, I'll be left to bleed out alone.
Our memories are sharp like knives
And every time I remember one,
It feels like a stab to the heart.
Over and over, the pain continues.
You leaving was torture,
Like you were trying to get something from me
That I didn't have.
Love is like a virus,
Sworn to hurt everyone infected.
People say the effects will wear off.
I'm not so certain.
You always had the tightest grip on me
Although, you only held on when it mattered most.
No wonder I wasn't left bruised and bleeding.
You never gave us a real chance
Instead you built a brick wall,
Ensuring you kept me out of your glance
You pushed me out,
When all I wanted to do was help.
But you didn't care at all.
It was always a shot in the dark with you.
But never a guaranteed hit.
You had me wrapped around your finger
Since the day we met.
You hit me where it hurt the most,
And you didn't even seem to care that you didn't miss.
And the bullet holes will never heal over.
Just like the memories I can never forget.
I miss you everyday,
You'll never understand how much.
I would still do anything for you,
even though you wouldn't even try for us.
***
Just know, I will always carry the shattered pieces of us with me,
No matter how many scars I gain from it.
I will always look through our memories,
Even if it means feeling like my heart's been cut to pieces.
I would go through all amounts of torture,
Just to see you smile and be happy.
I would make myself sick of love,
If it meant spending one more day with you.
I would allow myself to be black and blue,
If it meant you holding onto me.
I would use everything I have to knock every wall you built down,
And I'd jump from the tallest building for you.
I will always take a bullet for you,
Even when it's you pulling the trigger.
I would walk through the worst parts of Hell,
If it meant you giving me just one thought.
I will always feel this way about you,
But if I'm being honest,
On top of everything,
I wish I could forget you.
Like you forgot me.
