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It's been a couple days and we head into the training ground
"AND SHESS BACK FOR TRAININGG" Katie shouts wrapping her arms around me. Me and Leah had an argument last night worse then we ever had before as I sigh
"You okay?" Katie asks
"Yeah fine" I say walking into the changing rooms as I get changed I head into the room for breakfast I get toast and a orange juice as I sit with Katie Beth Viv and Caitlin as Leah sat with Lia Kim and lotte
"How come you ain't sitting with Leah" Beth asks
"Just not" I say eating my toast as they were all talking I wasn't paying much attention
"How you feeling about being back in training" Viv asks as I shrug
"Dunno it will be fine" I say getting up I wash up my plate as I head to get my boots on
"Hey" Lia says as I turn around
"What" I say
"Why are you ignoring Leah" she says
"Because I am" I say
"Stop being a dick to her" she says as I scoff
"Okay mate cuz I'm the one in the wrong yeah" I say keeping my head to tying my laces
"Yeah you are" she shoots back
I scoff as I go to walk off she try's to push me as I don't move I laugh
"Get a life and focus on your own shitty releationship" I say laughing as I walk off past Leah if it was anyone else I'd barge past especially the mood I was in but I move so Leah can walk through first I head out to training head down as the cameras where on me
We do drills and I felt good before going into an 11 a side match
"You okay to continue" Jonas asks me
"Yeah I'm buzzing" I say as I see Lia get the ball I go straight for the tackle not hurting her but winning the ball fairly it rolls to Leah
"GO IN" I hear someone ahout as I was still so angry with Leah I go in completey missing the ball as it takes her ankles out I hear a scream of pain I look down
"Shit Leah I'm so sorry" I say as Lia pushes me away
"You've done enough" she says as I hit the ground in frustration Jonas ended training I storm into the changing rooms as I put my head in my hands
"WHY WOULD YOU INJUR HER"Lia shouts shoving me as I sigh
"Mate I didn't mean to fucking hurt her did I" I say
"All because of some stupid argument last night Leah deserves better than you I don't see why she'd ever date someone like you you'll just fuck her and then crawl back to your ex" she says
"Me use Leah are you okay in the head" I say as Kim walks in
"Yes you treat Leah like shit I've seen it she hasn't
Told me but we all know you do"'she says
"Okay then if I treated Leah so shit why is she still with me and erm also why the fuck would she come onto me IVE never forced Leah to do anything and o never fucking would just because I'm in a healthy good releationship unlike your one which ended don't fucking come trying to ruin mine" I say
"Alright that's enough" Kim says as I go to walk out
"Pussy walking away Leah deserves better than some fucked up person like you" Lia says as I turn around I notice Katie and Beth jump up to push me back
"Leave it" Katie warns as I nod I walk to the medical room where Leah was
"How is it" I ask
"Good should only be out a few days" she says
"You know I never ment to hurt you" I say
"But Leah I love you and I'll always love you but I've been told a few truths Leah we ain't working together we will find eachother again" I say feeling my eyes tear up as do hers
"You deserve better find someone who can give you everything you need and want" i say
"YOU DO! Love" she says
"Leah I'm sorry okay but me and you are over" I say walking out as tears stream down my face Beth finds me as she hugs me I never cry in front of anyone Leah has seen me a couple times as Beth sighs
"What happened" she asks
"I broke up with Leah what wally said was right she deserves better" I say as she sighs
"You did all you could for Leah mate" she says as I nod
"Well it's not enough" I say as I felt like I was worth nothing now I'd lost the one thing keeping me going
I walk back into the changing rooms as wally gives it mouth I just ignore her I get changed as I walk to the doorway of the medical room I sigh as I see Leah walking out
"Please"she says clear she had been crying
"No Leah I'm sorry" I say walking away as I head to the home which I shared with Katie Beth and Viv as I walk to my room.
I get the blade as I draw it across my skin tears stream down my face as I look at my thighs and wrists I put the bracelet on the bedside table that Leah got me as I sigh
"I'm sorry" I whisper as I put a hoodie and joggers one as I put the blade back in my drawer Katie comes in
"Are you stupid" she says as I turn around
"I don't need this Katie fuck off" I say
"Why would you break up with Leah are you fucking stupid" she shouts as Beth walks in
"Katie fucking leave it" Beth says shoving her out as Beth hugs me
I hear the door knock downstairs as I get a familiar voice
"Leah." I hear Katie says as I heard her cry
"Fuck" I say as with
"I'm gonna go see if she's okay" Beth says hugging me as she leaves I sigh I felt so bad for doing this to Leah but I knew she needed someone who can give her more than I could I bandage my wrist as I head downstairs I new Leah would be there as I see her her face tear stained as I sigh I walk over to Leah as I wrap my arms around her as she relaxes her body Beth sighs
"Fuck sake I ain't keeping this no more" she says as Katie agrees
"Lia told iz to break up with you because she said you deserve better and wasn't happy with you" Beth blurts
"And she made out you hated dating iz" Katie adds
"Well that's a lie because I only want iz and I've been the happiest I ever have been with iz and no I don't deserve better because I ain't finding no one better" Leah says as I still hold her in my arms
"I'm sorry" I whisper
"You've got nothing to be sorry for okay" she says as I head into my room with Leah
"Why didn't you just talk to me" she asks softly
"Because I thought you would just get angry" I say as I lay down wrapped in her arms
"I'm never gonna be angry at you I'm sorry for the argument last night okay and erm please don't end this" Leah says
"O-okay" I say
"Hey I'm not forcing you babe okay you do what you want" Leah says
"Leah I love you I don't want to end this" I say
"Then don't" Leah says
"And whatever wally says I'll sort it okay" Leah says
"Okay babe" I say as she holds me tighter in her arms as the next thing I know I'm asleep