Love And Loss...

chapter 5 (aka the fourth wall breaker)

A/n before we start!: tbh I just told my friend I might post a chapter today so uhm this is it, srry if it's shitty I have no ideas and it's 3:29 rn, so lemme just start the shit show that anyone reading has been waiting for!!

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დ .•*””*•★Akio pov★•*””*•.დ

The next day hit, I really want to end it already... I take my pills that I have hid away so mother won't see it..

I know hell has a place for people like me..
Oh stop being depressing, the day hasn't even started
Easy for you to say, you just talk shit
Yea yea just get ready bitch
I already did whilst waiting for your ass to shut the fuck up
Oh. THEN GO, IDK
Alright alright bitch..

Once I arrived to school I saw Hoshi talking to ethan again... Maybe I should just move on...
NO I CAN'T MOVE ON THAT'S GOING TO BE HARD AND I'M GOING TO HAVE A DIFFICULT TIME RE-ADJUSTING UGH WHY AM I LIKE THIS?..

calm the fuck down, you just saw someone and you're already having a mental breakdown
What if she will never love me...
OH YOU BIG CRYBABY, COME ON SHE'S NO GOOD FOR YOU
OK OK, just expressing my emotions, I thought you of all ppl would understand
Go fuck yourself.
Ew no

I notice kastu walking up to me and signing "hey! Do you want to walk together?" I agreed and we had fun talking or well I was talking they were signing
We reached class and parted ways to our seats, and finished class

დ .•*””*•★hoshi pov★•*””*•.დ

Something's weird today...
Akio hasn't said a single word to me...
Is my plan failing?
Has she lost interest in me?
Nonononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononononono

NO.

THAT CAN'T HAPPEN.

I NEED MY PARENTS TO COME BACK.

I NEED MY PARENTS TO LOVE ME.

I NEED MY PARENTS. 

I CAN'T LET THEM DOWN.

NO.

THIS IS MY LIFE MISSION.

TO TRICK HER.

TO KILL HER.

SHE CAN'T JUST STOP TALKING TO ME.

I HAVE A JOB TO DO.

Eventually I walked up to akio and started talking to her, she seems happy. Kastu seems jealous?..
Or mad?.. Why?
WAIT

DOES SHE ACTUALLY LIKE AKIO

OH THAT'S FUCKING HILARIOUS

SHE CAN BE LOVABLE?