"Is This My Confession?"

You

"You are my fantasy, a perfect illusion.
When in reality, it's just my delusion."
-The Day I Die sung by Ruby (Vocaloid), produced by KIRA

I love you.

Those words are such an impact on one person.
An impact on you,
An impact on me, too.
But when you told me about our detachments, I remember feeling sharp to the chest.
I remember going to bed, crying silently.
As if the wound was bleeding out endlessly until all my blood had run out.
I was crying to the point of my eyes losing its moisture.

I loved the things you like,
I'm interested in things you are into,
I try playing games you have with you,
Heck, I even learned everything, never once skipping a tutorial if the game has one. Just so I'd be playing with you without acting like some fool.
I like, no, LOVE everything about you.
When we had become distant,
My dreams of you became frequent.
Some were our memories,
Most were the times where you hurt me in ways of how I'd hurt myself emotionally.

I know I won't lose you,
But it feels like I am.
I want to be in your life,
But it doesn't seem like you needed me.
I wish I could be with you,
But the relationship between us would be doomed as I'm not a great lover, or in this case, I don't feel like a good friend.

I kept continuing the things we used to do, I never stopped.
The only difference is that I'm alone.
I still wore the jumper (Sweater) you loved.
I never stopped doing what you like of me.

"I can't define this pain inside.
My soul has shattered and my heart is tied."
-The Day I Die sung by Ruby (Vocaloid), produced by KIRA

Losing you made me realised that I loved you.
And now I couldn't bring you back to me,
Cause I no longer make you happy like I used to make you.