Fate

Chapter Twentyfour.

"I missed you so much, sweetie.", mom hugs me tightly as soon as I step inside the house.

Almost choking, I don't bother wrapping my arms around her. But also because I'm too tired to do so because of the long three hour drive - without any stops, may I add.

Luckily, both dad and Chase see - unlike mom - that I'm exhausted, so they don't really greet me. I mean, they smile at me, but that's all. Dragging my suitcase with me, I walk upstairs and into my room - also known as my home, haha.

Hayley follows me all the way up to my room, and she almost flies up into my bed. I close the door behind me and tiredly walk over to her. Not really having so much energy, I just lay down as she lays down next to my face, staring at me.

I quickly pet her head before I jump up on my feet again, remembering the clothes that need to be put in the washing machine. Walking very slowly, I take all the clothes that I've used in my arms and walk down to the basement.

Seeing as the washing machine is half full when I get there, and full when I've put my clothes into it as well, I start it so that none of the others have to bother to do it. Then, I walk back upstairs to my room, crashing in the bed with my phone.

Taking the stereo controller from my bedside table, I start my iPod on shuffle, and the first song that comes on is Birthday by Pixie Lott. To be honest, I haven't really thought about the lyrics to this song before.

The thing is, I some times like songs for the lyrics. Some of the songs that I like have a deep meaning, or maybe something that I can relate to. But I also like songs because they're catchy, and that the tune is great.

But this song actually suits me really well, to be honest. Maybe not the part about "wanting to play with my lifeline", since I haven't ever considered or wanted to kill myself, but almost everything else about it.

Almost as if listening to this song made him think about me, Darren calls me. His number and his name is on the screen of my phone. I had totally forgotten about him! 

I sigh and decide not to answer it. Yes, okay, that wasn't very nicely done of me, but I'm just not in the mood to talk to him. Especially not when all he can think about is how he and I are supposed to become a couple, even though I've specifically told him that we're just friends.

"Close to tears I was stressing out,
with you I forgot what I worry about.

Took your time, well, at least you're here -
and all the drama's disappeared."

As I hear those lyrics again (the song is on repeat), I almost gasp for air. Wow, that is just.. really suitable for me right now.

'Close to tears I was stressing out' - is about the fact that Darren was almost dying for us two to become a couple, and that I had to make a difficult decision about him and Niall, since it was unsure if Niall would like me or not.

'With you I forgot what I worry about' - when the boys came, and when me and Niall eventually got on really well, I had totally forgotten about Darren.

'Took your time, well, at least you're here' - is about the fact that Niall (and the boys) took their time to come to New York to perform at Madison Square Garden, and even though they weren't there for such a long time, at least Niall was there.

'And all the drama's disappeared' - is about that when I was with Niall, I, as said, had totally forgotten about Darren. And since Darren was causing drama about 'he and I', the drama had disappeared.

It's almost scary how much these lines suit me, actually. Sighing, I press a button on the stereo controller so that the repeat function isn't on. The next song is Make The World Move by Christina Aguilera and CeeLo Green. A song that's really catchy and has a deep meaning.