Can I Trust You? { COMPLETED }

Hell and Back

" I need to cool down....HEATED "

BEY's POV
Mercy Hospital
October 26th

I've been an emotional wreck. I done cursed the doctors,nurses,visitors, Lauren, Solange .... shit even my mama out. She smacked me upside my head after but that's beside the point. I was furious this nigga decided to fucking rape my future baby momma is he crazy?
Yeah I think I have to revert back to my old ways.

Before I got into the fashion industry I dibbled and dabbled in the drug industry. I picked that up from my uncle that is like a second father to me. Once my dad had ran off with his whore and left my mother to fend for herself and us. My uncle stepped up and always looked out for us. When I turned 18 I had an automatic way in the industry. Everyone knew not to screw me over because my Uncle was going to lay hands and feet on them over me. With me being in that business it comes with either kill or be killed. Which one you think I chose?

But once I seen some of my closest friends and family die behind that lifestyle I decided to hang it up when it was 22. I put my money into different businesses and created my own company at 23 and the rest is history.

I knew when I found whoever did this to Nicki that he was going to suffer. I already made the calls I needed to call. I have my men searching for him as we speak. Soon as I get the confirmation that he's spotted and captured then I'll move forward with my plan. Until then I'm staying right by Nicki side.

I felt someone touch my arm.

"BeyBey is mommy okay ? " I see the worry in her eyes and all I can do is just cry because if I didn't fuck up her mother. Nicki wouldn't have went on that date. She would've been safe. I let the both of them down.

Mya crawled into my lap and wiped my tears.

" No cry for long BeyBey, mommy always say. "You have to be strong, cry for a little and then be a big girl ".

" You have to be strong for mommy she not gone like you if you're weak "

All I could do is start to laugh because this little girl is to damn smart. I kissed her forehead.

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It was now 2 am in the morning and I sent everyone home. Mia needed to be in the bed and everyone had work in the morning. I promised them that soon as I get updated I will let them know.

" Family for Onika Tanya Minaj "

I didn't waste no time walking over to the doctor.

" Is everything okay ? "

" Yes She's going to be okay. She passed out due to her blood pressure being low due to the drug that she was on, she said she was throwing up which explained the low fluid she had when she arrived, and of course from her being in panic. We performed a rape kit and tested for sexually transmitted diseases and everything came back negative. Are you her partner? "

" Yes " I answered quickly.

" I advise that you get her some help mentally, when females are raped they battle a lot of different emotions that can lead to depression ".

" Thank you, I appreciate it. When will I be able to see her? " I needed to see her now. Being away from her in this time when she need close ones the most was hurting me.

" she's allowed visitors right now and you're welcome take care ".

I took off to search for her room. When her room number was in front of me I just caught chills I was nervous to see her. I walked in the room and she was sleeping. I walked over to her bed and gave her a kiss on her forehead. I was about to grab the chair and she called my name.

" Bey? .. is that you ? " her voice was so scratchy.

" Yes baby it's me " I said while I rubbed her head.

" can you lay with me? " she was trying to sit up. 

" lay back down mamas and I can't lay in the bed with you with my outside clothes ". I said

" please I just need to feel you " I couldn't let her down.

I get in the bed with her and she came and rested her head on my chest.

" Bey I was so damn scared, I was just praying that everything will stop. I couldn't even fight back because my body was so weak. I couldn't even scream. " I honestly didn't want her to even think about it right now just wanted her to get some rest but I know she needed to express herself.

" I felt so dirty afterwards. I don't wish that on anyone. Maybe it was my fault. I deserved that. I should've known better to leave my drink around someone I didn't know. I should've known to just leave with Lauren and Solo. I'm so damn dumb. I'm just so ugly and nobody will ever want me for me. They want me for my body. " to hear her say this about herself was truly breaking my heart.

" Nicki, stop beating yourself up. You didn't know the type of person he was going to be. You can't blame yourself. You see the good in every person that comes your way. You thought he had good intentions because that's the energy you give out. You're not dumb you're far from it. You're smart, loving, generous, strong, determined, and you will go out of your way to make everyone around you happy before you even think about yourself. You have a daughter that loves you. You have your mom that loves you. You have me you loves you. We love you for you. You don't need to worry about anybody wanting you just for your body because you have me. Someone who wants and need you for plenty of reasons outside of your body. You're a beautiful woman Onika. Stop speaking down on yourself. " I said

She looked up at me

" You love me Bey? " she said with tears in her eyes.

" I'm in love with you, I know I fucked up in the past but I promise you I'll never make that mistake again. Please let me love you out loud, in private, and forever. "

She crashed her lips into mine and we shared a passionate kiss until we both needed air.

" I love you too Bey, please don't hurt me "

" I'm never going to hurt you " I said and let her rest her head back on my chest.

I started to sing quietly

If I ain't got nothing, I got YOU
If I ain't got something I don't give a damn,
cause I got it with YOU
I don't know much about about algebra but I know
1+1= 2
And it's me and it's you.
That's all we'll have when the world is through
Cause baby, we ain't got nothing without love
Darling you got enough for the both of US

I just laid there watching her sleep so peacefully. I truly love this girl. I can't wait to see what the future hold for us.

" I'll go to hell and back for you my love "

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Thoughts? 💭

Beyoncé crying in front of Mia?

Mia words to Beyoncé?

Nicki feeling like it's her fault?

Beyoncé Assuring Nicki ?

What do yall expect to happen next ?