Dear friend,
Have you ever felt out of place? Like you were somewhere or someone you don't belong? Have you ever felt that you're not good enough? Have you ever been surrounded by people but feel alone?
Yeah?
Welcome to my life....
I pushed my chair back and examined what I had written and scoffed.
I know my writing is pretty crap but even when I'm writing to myself it comes out so terribly. But hey all of those things are true. I picked my pen up again and continued writing
I wish I had a true friend.... Jean doesn't count.... neither does Mikasa.... I feel.... responsible....for my only true friend....Jean can't even look at me.... I wish I hadn't been there that day... I knew.... I knew about all of it.... and I said nothing....he just always seemed so happy... I thought he was.... okay..
Drip....drop
Oh I see that I'm crying again......i guess I never stop.... crybaby....weak... pathetic.... he didn't deserve this.... I'm worthless and pathetic.... I hope... At school I can do better.... I just wonder why they don't want to be my friends... Is it because of my weakness? Because I'm fat? Why? Just answer me why? WHY?
I slammed my hand on the desk, tears in my eyes. Packing up my desk, I rubbed my eyes. And I slept.
