Unexpected Love

CHAPTER -42

Dunk pov

The moment I saw Phuwin's visa suddenly it felt like everything stopped around me...I was thinking that he might have made the decision in such a way...he might not be that serious but I didn't think that he is really going...I made it impossible to stay him in this house with me...now what should I do...what should I do that he would stop...if I would talk to him and try to convince him to stay will he listen

Once he told me to study at Chula University was his childhood dream...and also said that he didn't want to go abroad to study and wanted to finish his study here...but why did things turn into like this...It all happened because of me...I shouldn't feel for my brother...I would rather stay quiet and let these feelings die inside me...what did I do...I ruined everything...I saw today Phuwin wasn't happy to see his visa...but still he's going

I tried my best not to love Phuwin...and see him only as my brother....but I myself didn't realize when I started falling for him...and when I realized I didn't want to keep these feelings because I also knew that It's impossible...but these feelings just went to increase day by day and I couldn't help but fell for my brother

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Today I didn't go uni...I just spent my whole day laying on my bed...and I couldn't help but cry for a long time...and when I took a look at my phone I saw it was already evening...so I got up and went to the bathroom and got freshen up...after that I was sitting on my study table doing nothing...and after a while I heard a car sound...and I understand that Phuwin came back from uni...so I quickly got up and went to his room...as I have had to talked to him...I was just hoping that somehow Phuwin convinced and changed his mind

As I entered his room I was waiting for him...and suddenly my eyes fell on his study table...there was a diary on the table....it was Phuwin's...I noticed that diary many times...also I saw Phuwin kept writing that diary....but I never touched it...as that was his privacy and also there was a note in the diaries front cover that ''DO NOT TOUCH"...so I never tried to see that...but today curiously I took the dairy and about to opened but at the moment Phuwin entered the room

"WHAT...wh...at are you doing in my room?" after entering the room as he saw me he immediately snatched the diary from my hand and shouted with a nervous tone

"I..I'm sorry...I... I..didn't open it!" I said

"Why are you in my room? " he asked while looking at me in a serious face

"I...um..I was...!" I couldn't finish

"I'm tired...um..can you pl..ease le..ave my...um...my...room? " he interrupted and said but didn't look at me and walked towards his closet

"Phu...win...please don't go abroad...I... um...I promise you I'll never bother you!" I said while looking at him but he didn't turn back...he was just standing in front of his closet

"Please!" I again said while grabbing his hand and making him face me but he immediately released his hand

"What's your problem huh...leave my room!"he said with a serious tone but I could see his teary eyes

"I LOVE YOU DAMN...I HAVE A PROBLEM... I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO... I CAN'T LET YOU GO!" I shouted while holding his arm tightly

"Leave...It's hurting! " he said while trying to release himself but I unheard him and keep holding him like that

"You can't leave me Phuwin...please don't go!" I said and started crying while placing my head on his shoulder...for a moment Phuwin got quiet but after a while he suddenly pushed me and said

"I've made my mind...I'm going ...no matter what happens and how many times you request me!" he said while swiping his tears

and heard that I don't know what happened to me suddenly my blood boiled and I held him against the closet and started kissing him so harshly...and as i started kissing him he started crying and he was trying to stop me by pushing my chest...but I was just continuously kissing him and biting his lips unconsciously and suddenly I felt a salty taste in my mouth so I stopped kissing him and took the chance Phuwin immediately pushed me and as I looked at him I saw Phuwin's lips were bleeding

"FOR GOD SHAKE PLEASE STOP!" Phuwin shouted while crying

"I...I'm...I didn....sorry...Ph!" I was about to hold him again but he stepped back

"Get out!" he said with a serious tone

"I'm sorry...your lip..!" I couldn't finish

"Stop it please...I'm begging you..!" Phuwin said while crying

"I'm sorry Phuwin... I don't k..now what ha...ppened to me sud..denly I...I...!!"I was crying while looking at the floor that I couldn't talk

" Hia!"

Suddenly he called me after some silence and I got startled...I don't know how many days later I heard the word from him

"Can you do me a favour?" he said with a soft voice

I couldn't say anything just looking at him

"Can you stop coming home until I go abroad! " he said while crying

heard that my heart started aching....I was feeling like I couldn't move nor talk

"Please...give me this word as my birthday gift hiaa!" he again said while crying continuously

Hearing that the ground moved under my feet...what he just wants from me...how could I do that...I was standing like a statue while looking at him and crying...he wants a birthday gift from me for the first time but...I was going crazy...I couldn't speak a single word...It was feeling like something got stuck in my throat

"Please Hia...!!" he said while looking at me and his eyes were full with tears

I was standing there like that and after a while I looked at him for once and without saying anything I left his room

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I couldn't sleep whole night...I was just crying continuously while thinking Phuwin's word...he hate me that much...my heart was aching much that I felt like I couldn't take breathe...I couldn't believe my self...I don't know what's happening with me every time...why I kept hurting Phuwin like that...today I kept kissing him until he started bleeding...what happened with me...why am I behaving like that

He made up his mind that he'll go abroad...and how would I expect that he'll stay in this house when he doesn't even want to see me for one week...and actually I should stay away from him...because whenever we meet I just do nothing but make him cry and hurt him...but when he asked me for the favour, for the last time I wanted to hugg him so tightly...I wanted to took him in my arm...and stay like that the whole night...I don't know when I love him this much...but now It's feeling like impossible to live without him

While talking to him his soft voice and teary eyes were driving me crazy...it was feeling like he was hiding something...something that he might be wanted to tell me or I'm just thinking over my self...I don't know...I just wanted to stop him from going abroad...but he stopped me to go in front of him...may be It'll be the best for him and me...MAY BE