𝐋𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐍 𝐋𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐏𝐒. Michael Kaiser

7. Mad

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Birds of a feather, we should stick together.
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Michael Kaiser◇

I saw it. The name flashed by like a memory. She was a memory. She was a memory that I had to leave behind. She was a weakness. Nikita Moriah was not a luxury i was allowed to have. I learned that through all my years of training. It was not okay. I learnt that from how much it had been engraved into my brain. I remember it so clearly.

Love was a luxury of the blessed. I was not blessed. Why was she here? Why were her messages here. No. Fuck, I couldn't face her. I couldn't know her. I couldn't let her be known in a world where she is not meant to stand. But I knew she would fight. I know that. I haven't given her reason enough not to. Unless she gave up on me.

Did she? I wonder sometimes. I wonder if she missed me the same way I let her rest at the back of my mind. But seeing her name brought me back. Brought me to places in my heart I wasn't sure I could revisit. It was too vivid. Her screaming face. It was my fault that day. I should have done something. No.

She should have done something.

That's stupid. She was just a kid back then. But when I grew up, I never looked. Instead, I forced my brain to forget all about her. I had no choice. I couldn't be so hung up on someone who wouldn't help me in life. But everytime I thought about her, my heart clenched. Niki. I remember it. The day she smiled and held my hand. Mikey – she called me. She had always been my light. And I swear even the summer sun had never shun brighter than her.

Now, the universe had somehow managed to throw her back into my life. It would be a lie if I said I didnt miss her. It would be a lie if I said I never craved the kindness she gifted me. That feeling of never being cold even in winter. So that even when summer came, the only sun I would ever feel was her. But it all faded away like a stupid dream. Just like that she wilted away from me like a flower. My rose finally withered.

Is it stupid to miss it? To miss someone who clearly didn't try enough. Isn't it hypocritical? I didn't try. I could have found her. She could have been his if he tried hard enough. She could have been his only. She could have held him again. Even if his tears were only ever seen by her eyes, he wouldn't mind. He wouldn't mind because he was only ever used to her hand wiping his tears. He didn't know how else to deal with pain if not by her.

The wounds were gone. Maybe he didn't need her anymore. After all, there were no need for the bandages. No need for her to comfort him as he winced from the sting on the alcohol when she treated his wounds. He didn't need her anymore. Even if she was his saviour. It doesn't mean she had so much use anymore. He knew that. He knew he had to push her away. It couldn't be her. He couldn't let it be her.

Bmunchen

?-Nikita
Who is this? What why am I here?

Kaiser
Wrong number

Ness
Should we kick her Kaiser?

Benedict
Yo, add the boss n let him decide

Erik
I wanna keep her

Ness added Noa to the chat

Noa
Whose this?

Benedict
A spectacular addition! Nikita

Kaiser
Right.

?-Nikita
Do you not remember me, Michael?

Kaiser
What? What are you talking about.

Ness
You know her?

Kaiser
She's just a fan.

Noa
I dknt care what u do as long as it don't affect ur play

Nikita
Woohoo. Oh. Fucking hell.

Kaiser

Nikita
Do yoy seriously not remember me?

Kaiser
Will you leave me alone? It's not thst I don't know you, we just aren't close. Don't act like we are.

Nikita
I guess so. It's been like 8 years, but I just.

Kaiser
I don't need someone as insignificant as you doing this. Shut up and leave me alone.

Nikita
Right. Sorry superstar but I dknt know if I'm ready to give up. I'll make sure you love me again

Kaiser
I don't have the time for that. I have to focus on football. I'm sorry, Nikita, but give up

Nikita
I didn't give up for 8 years, Mikey. There's no way in the world I'm giving up now.

Bmunchen

Ness
Well, introduce urself hen

Noa
I guess you must

Nikita
I'm Nikita, and I'm 18, I like music and yeah i guess

Benedict
How disappointingly boring

Nikita
Yeah ig

Noa
You okay kid?

Nikita
Ofc ! Don't worry about me i swr

Noa
Alright then, bye

Nikita
Yeah bye

Erik
Dknt be too sad over whatever it is

Ness
Mhm! Try to stay positive, okay? Don't you think so too, Kaiser?

Kaiser
Yh ok idrk

Nikita
I'm gonna go.

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He didn't want to hurt her. He just wanted her to forget about him. To move on from him because they both would never happen. She couldn't save him this time because there was no dangers. She was just there for him when he needed it, but now he didn't need it. But still, It hurt him more than he could fathom to say that to her. He really wanted her to be okay.

Still, he was oblivious to just how badly he had affected her.

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Chapter ending

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