Unexpected love

5

The next day they held her funeral. Jihoon tried to stay strong but a few stary tears found its way out.

Later that evening they went home. Jihoon went to his room and laid in his bed. He didn't want to act strong anymore so he just let himself cry. He let it all out.

"Why grandma why?!! Why did you leave me alone in this cruel world how do you expect me to survive in this world you were my only strength now i don't have anything left why should i live. Grandma i'll come to you i can't do this i am not strong enough" cried out jihoon.

He got up and went to his bedside table where he kept a knife. He picked it up and got it near to his wrist but then he remembered his promise to his grandma.

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"Listen to me hoonie, you should never give up ok no matter what happen yeah, you should keep on living for the ones who loves you and I Love You jihoon so keep on living for me yeah" said his grandmother. Jihoon just nooded at her.

"Promise me jihoon that you will never even think about that and that you will live for me, always know that i love you and never give up for me ok" asked grandma.

 "I promise grandma, that will live for you and will never think like that." said jihoon with a smile.
      
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Jihoon put down the knife and laid in his bed. "i will keep my promise grandma i'll make you proud of me" said jihoon.

He doesn't even know if his parents are at home, even if they were he didn't care. it's not like they cared about him anyways.You know the worst part out of all this he doesn't even have anyone to share his problems,his sadness with. There was no one to listen to him.

He again cried at night, he doesn't even know when he fell asleep.

The next day came. Jihoon woke up at 6.30 am. The school gave him extra days off and jihoon also doesn't have the mood to go to school.

But he still got up and got ready for school. The reason he is going to school is because he doesn't trust himself.

He knows that if he stayed at home he'll probably end up doing something to himself. Also his finals are only two weeks away, the exam which will determine his life so he decided to go to school.

He wanted to keep his promise to his grandma and become a producer. He came down from his room and went to the kitchen as usual his mother was there but what's unusual was that his mother was not screaming at him like normal.

" It's just been one day maybe that's why she quiet but is she caring about my feelings no! No way it's maybe because she also misses her." thought jihoon.

He quietly picked his lunch boxes and went outside. His mother didn't say a world till he left. The fact jihoon's suprised is an understatement.

He went to his usual place, the playground, and had his breakfast. He was dreading to go to school but he has to go.

So he finished his breakfast, got up and started walking to his school. The moment he stepped inside the school, whispers started flying around.

Without caring he went to his lockers. But he still could hear the whispers, even though he acts like he didn't care,those words hit him pretty hard.

"His grandma died yesterday and he came to school today.

" Is he really that heartless oh my god"

"But i heard he is close with his grandama but looks like he is not"

"I didn't expect that fag to be this much heartless"

"Ofcourse he is heartless, if he cared about others feeling he wouldn't be a fag in the first place that whore tsk".

Jihoon just quietly went to his class and sat down in his seat. Their words were keep ringing in his head.

But i am not heartless. They don't even know me, my pain yet they're talking shit about me they don't know how their words are hurting how this world hurting me yet they badmouth me. It's not like being gay is a choice.

They don't know anything. They weren't with me when i was happy, when i was sad and crying who are they to talk about me but i will be strong grandma for you i will be thought jihoon.

A tear escaped his eyes but he quickly wiped it before anyone sees it.

The rest of the day went with people whispering about jihoon and him only focusing on his studies, not giving shit about those people.

The two weeks went by fast. Since the finals were near everyone focused on their studies but somehow people always find a way to badmouth him but let's not care about them.

The exams started. When the first exam came, jihoon wanted to give up. What if he didn't get into SNU or any other universities in seoul what if he's not good enough, will all of his efforts will go to waste?

Jihoon just sat there thinking about this. It was 7 am and the exam starts at 9.30 so he really needed to get going. He remembered his grandma and got up and went to the exam centre.

He did his best on all of the exams and he got really good marks now all that's left is to apply to colleges and get admitted.

He applied to a lot of colleges and hoped that he will get admitted in atleast one of them. He really needed to get out of here and this was only ticket.

One day, a mail came. Jihoon opened it and read it. It stated a lot of things but one line got jihoon's attention and that was" You got accepted in to Seoul National University's Music course Conguratulations."

Jihoon couldn't believe his eyes. "I really got accepted into SNU oh my god! I can't believe it Grandma i did it" said jihoon looking at the sky.

But the sad part is he didn't have anyone to share his happiness with. " How unlucky i am, i don't have anyone to share my happiness or sadness you were the only one who listened to me grandma but now" said jihoon with a sad chuckle. ( Little did he know that he'll find 12 amazing people that will be with him throughout everything)

The letter stated that " The University starts about three weeks latter from now, so you're advised to be here a week before to get used to here"

Now jihoon can't wait to leave this place and go there. He can't wait for this week to be over. He can finally leave this hell called home and live the life he wanted, he will make his promise come true.

But there was part of him that was scared about going to a new place. What if they also doesn't like me, starts spreading gossip about me. Will i be alone there as well or will there be someone who will understand me.

These thoughts were circling in his head, he was scared but there was hope in him, something in him told him to do it, so he will do it.

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