Jack Gilinskys Little Sister s.w

Part 28

*skip to chemo*

I go in for my first day of chemo. Sam comes with me and sits with me during it. It's a long draining process that takes all my energy and appetite.
Sam reads me a magazine as I lay in the recliner chair.
"You're so pretty."
"Thank you handsome."
"You're welcome beautiful."
The older women, old enough to be my grandma whose sitting next to me comments on our relationship.
"When my husband was alive we were just like you two. I love seeing young love."
"Thank you." I say politely.
"He died a few years ago. He got pneumonia and never got better."
"I'm very sorry for your lose." Sam said
"Thank you, he was lovely, he sat with me through each chemo until he got sick. He actually looked like you when he was young."
"Then I bet he was very handsome when he was young." Sam says jokingly she lightly laughs and goes back to her magazine. When I'm finished they let me go home. I'm so weak I can't walk up the stairs. I have a killer headache and Sam Carries me up the stairs. He lays me in bed and tells me he's gonna go hang out with Jack. I lay down and fall asleep. A couple of hours later around midnight. Sam stumbles into the room drunk. He comes into bed and grabs me tightly pulling me against him. "You're so perfect"
"Sam you need sleep."
"No I don't. I need you."
"Sam how much did you drink?"
"Enough to not be upset."
"Why are you upset?"
"Well my girlfriend has cancer and I don't want her to die."
"Aww baby I'm gonna be here with you no matter what."
"I love you Tay please don't leave me?"
"Of course not Sam." I say crying.
He hugs me tightly and we stay curled up together for the rest of the night. When we wake up my dad walks in turning on the lights waking me up.
"Rise and shine!"
"Ughhhhh what."
"Oh you can sleep, but last night your friend Sam and your brother Jack stumbled in drunk late at night so they have to get up early and go fishing with me as punishment."
Sam gets up in just his boxers.
"Put some clothes on wilkinson Jesus Christ!" He screams walking out.
"I hate your dad."
"Not my fault you two were loud coming in last night."
He gets up and changes and leaves the room.
I guess I'm alone today. I call Jj
"I'm to weak to do stuff for myself so can we watch tv all day and you can do stuff for me?"
"I'm on my way" he laughs knowing he has no choice.
"thank you."
He comes over and comes up to my room.
"What's up butter cup?"
"You're so cheesy"
"It's what I do best. So where's Sam and Jack?"
"My dad caught them drunk late last night so he's making them go fishing with him nice and early."
"Sucks for them. What movie?"
"Anything."
"How about we binge watch bobs burger?"
"Good for me."
He puts it on on Netflix and we spend the whole day watching movies.
Later at night I get hungry I send Jack to get us sandwiches from the deli.
He gets back and we eat in my room. Sam and Jack get home later and my dad goes out with his lady friend again.
Sam walks in to my room and kisses my cheek. "Eww go shower you smell like fish!"
He goes into my bathroom and showers and comes back in just. Wrapped in a towel.
"That's my cue to go hang out with Jack. By you two!" Jj says leaving
"Babe I have a boner."
I give him head and let him cum in my mouth.
"Baby what do you want for Christmas?"
"It doesn't matter, you don't have to get me anything, you're constant support is enough for me."
"Okay really you are making this really hard for me you have literally everything in the world so idk what to get you!"
"You don't need to get me anything Sammy."
"I'm getting you a present!"
We cuddle and fall asleep.

When I wake up I have a sudden burst of energy. I wake up and go bike riding. When I get home Sam and Jack are awake on the couch. Jack sees me walk in
"How are you feeling."
"Energetic!"
"When do you go back to chemo babe?" Sam asks
"2 weeks. So right before Christmas."
"Okay. We should do something." Jack says
"Let's go to an amusement park!"
"Okay sure." Jack says I go Change into black jeans and a red long sleeve magcon tshirt. I wear black vans and out my hair in a loose ponytail. We get in the gwagon and drive to the nearest one which is an hour away. When we get to adventure island Jack buys us bracelets and we go on tons of rides. Me and Sam take cute pictures on the Ferris wheel.
I post one on Instagram. We get food from a vender and I split chicken fingers and french fries with sam and Jack eats pizza. We then get funnel cakes and share them. We leave the amusement park around midnight and get home at 130 because of traffic. Sam sleeps over, no surprise there.
He climbs in bed with me after he gets out of the shower about 15 minutes after I got out. His hair is all wet and he shakes his head toward me getting me and my phone all wet.
"Sam!!"
"Sorry it was an accident." He laughs sarcastically.
"you're such a dork."
"No you're a dork" Sam whines
"no you're a dork!"
"You're both dorks now shut up and let me sleep."
"I think jacks mad." Sam says
"Wow I couldn't tell!" I say sarcastically
"Why are you being a bitch?" He asks angrily
"Why are you being such an ass?" I respond
"Why are you being obnoxious?" He says with more frustration
"Cause you're being a loser!" I scream
"Oh, okay I'm a loser." He laughs
"Why don't you just leave?"
"Fine I will!"
He screams getting up and slamming the door.
Ugh he's so frustrating!
"I hate him!" I say grabbing the glass of water next to my bed and throwing it at a wall.
"Whoa what's going on?" Jack asks seeing the water dripping down the wall and the broke glass on my floor.
"Sam is an ass that's all."
"What happened you two were fine 5 minutes ago?"
"Yeah well things change, people change! Great example: one day I was completely fine and the next I have to go to chemo therapy! Oh wait there's more, I saw my boyfriend kiss another girl and forgave him! Oh wait it gets better, I like it when my boyfriend hurts me during sex! So yeah things change, people change and life fucking sucks! There is no amount of money or fame or anything at all that can make it better! It sucks and sucks and sucks and then you fucking die! Guess what Jack, I'm probably not gonna make it! This is serious cancer and I don't know if I even want to alive if I can't be happy and healthy! Okay? Can you wrap your head around that? One moment life is fine and the next you're throwing a glass at a wall!" I shout angrily slamming my fists on the mattress.
Jack leaves the room and comes back with a rag and a broom to sweep up the glass. He washes everything up.
"You know something Taylor? Not everyone can feel bad for you all the time. There's gonna be times you're not the center of attention and times when people get mad at you! So stop having a pity party for yourself and get over it. You're gonna live don't say you're not! You know maybe if you thought of anyone but yourself you would realize that every time you say that everyone who cares about you gets scared and upset and worried! I love you, dad loves you, mom loves you, Jj loves you, Nate loves you. We all care about you. But you know who this is hurting the most? It's not hurting you the most. It's hurting Sam the most because he is IN love with you. There's a difference! He's more scared then you are! He told me that he would kill himself with out you! That he wouldn't know what to do. He would be so broken. And me? I don't have an idea what I'm gonna do. I don't want to have an idea of what to do! So guess what. Get over yourself. Maybe Sam is sick of hearing that you're scared when he's terrified. Maybe he's tired of hearing you say 'I'm too tired, I'm too weak' when he's the one struggling, carrying you through life. Just something's to think about. Good night." He screams and slams the door.

Jack had never gotten that mad at me. But he's right. I haven't thought about anyone but myself.
I can't sleep. It's 2:47 and I call Sam he answers with a tired voice
"Hello?"
"Sam can I come get you?"
"Yeah why what's wrong? Are you okay?"
"Yeah but, I need to talk to you."
"Okay I'm ready when you get here."
"Thank you."
"Babe you're scaring me are you sure everything is alright?"
"Yes I'm positive."
I hang up and pick him up
I text him that I'm here and he walks out to my car. He gets in and we drive to the 24 hour diner.
"Can I have hash browns and bacon please." I ask the women
"Sure and what about you. Cutie pie." She wink and Sam
"Um can I have a waitress that doesn't hit on me when I'm with my girlfriend? And a side of pancakes and a coffee."
"Oh um sure I'll be back with the coffee in a minute."

"What was so urgent."
"Sam I'm so sorry. I know all of this had to have been really hard for you. I'm sorry that I only thought about myself when I say all the stuff about me dying. Im sorry if the whole thing is scaring you. I just want to thank you for always being there for me and never pressuring me and for always standing by my side and being there for me in my roughest times. I'm sorry for being such s burden."
"Baby you're not a burden, you're the complete opposite you make me want to get up every morning, you make me want to be up and go outside and see the world. You are my world. I don't want you to worry about me ever. It's my job to worry about you."
"But lately I've been complaining a lot and only thinking about myself. I'm sorry if I have been bitchy. I love you so much you're my world."
"if I'm your world you're my universe."
"You're so corny." I giggle.
Our food comes and we eat in quiet peace.
"let's go to the lake house." I smile
"okay." We get in the car and I drive us there.
We get in and I turn on the lights and go into the master room.
"This is where we started. We came as friends and left as boyfriend and girlfriend." He says laying on the bed. "I liked you for so long before that."
"No you didn't." I laugh
"Yeah I did, for s really long time."
"Awe baby." I say pinching his cheeks.
"Shut up and kiss me shit head." Sam says leaning in.
We kiss and then cuddle in the dark. All I can hear is his breath and feel his heart beat. As I fall asleep.

A/n: this will be the final chapter and the next one will be an epilogue. I just wanted to say I loved writing this and I can't wait to write another book. Thank you all so much for reading!