What the Future has for Us -- Renee Rapp fiction

Chapter 58 - AWAY

A.N

Hiiii my loves, how are you today ? Had a good week end ?

Did I scare you with this title ? sorry

Anyway I hope you'll enjoy it !

Pleasee comment what you want/think will happened because I'm starting to be short on ideas and I don't want this story to end !!!

Byyeee, M

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DECEMBER

Renee's POV :

Did I go too far with this party? Was it too soon for Max to have so many people around? I guess I might have pushed it. But it's also my release party, and even if she's mad for whatever reason, she had no right to yell at me like that. Then again, she did tell me her back was killing her, and to be honest, she looked really pale.

Anyway I tried to enjoy the people as much as i could but knowing that Max wasn't feeling well got me worried, I had to check on her.

It's been almost one hour since she slammed the door, getting everybody really confused, but they forgot about it pretty quickly and returned to their dancing.

As the party began to wind down, I made my way to her room. Alyah and Adam, being the angels they are, were taking care of seeing people out. I'd clean everything up tomorrow. I softly knocked on the door but got no answer. I cracked it open and approached her bed.

She had buried her face in the pillow. I closed the door behind me, hearing now only the muffled sound of music and the hum of conversations.

"Max ?" my voice was quiet and hesitant. "Are you awake ?"

I could see her breathing slowly, but I knew she wasn't asleep.

I took her silence as a permission and sat down on the edge of her bed, my hand gently resting on her back.

"I'm sorry if I made you feel neglected," I said quietly. "I've been so busy with the album, and I didn't realize how much it was affecting you. But I'm here now, okay? And I'm not going anywhere."

"Don't" she whispered.

I stayed silent

"Don't excuse yourself, you did nothing wrong ..." the room fell into a heavy silence again until she spoke.

"I'm sorry I yelled at you" she said, her voice low and thick with tears" The pain medication is just heavy and I'm exhausted. And god, I know I love these people, I do but seeing them being all happy like that when I'm scared all the fucking time makes my anxious, I'm so tired because I can't sleep because I'm afraid I'm not going to wake up again. And I know I said once that I would never want time away from you, I don't. But this right now is too much. Too many people, too much noise, too many lights. Right now, all I want is to be alone with you, in a bed and fucking sleep in your arms, because that's the only place I can sleep right now. So would you, please, hold me until I fall asleep ?"

Her words broke my heart and filled it with warmth at the same time. I took off my shoes and slid into bed beside her, wrapping my arms around her. She nestled into me, her body relaxing.

We stayed in silence for a while, my arm tight around her, my head resting on top of hers, almost breathing into her hair. I could smell her, and God, let me tell you, I missed that smell so much. I missed it like a part of my soul had been missing. That familiar, comforting scent. It was like coming home after being away for too long.